Do you have thoughts on why Travis imagined Lottie the first time him and Nat fully had sex because I still don’t get that scene
I think it's for one or two different reasons. Yellowjackets has its faults, but the emotional comlexity of the characters is its greatest strength imo and this is an example. With Travis in this moment, I think seeing Lottie is both a manifestation of his sexual trauma and his desire for faith and reassurance.
Lottie is constrastingly both his primary assaulter and the person who most comforts him spiritually. That desire for her comfort and a higher connection/faith has become intertwined with sexual desire, even if he doesn't desire Lottie herself. For a number of reasons, not least of all the trauma of doomcoming, it seems like he struggles to seperate spiritual desire from sexual desire. Which is possibly why he becomes aroused when Lottie comforts him during his panic attack. It's about what Lottie represents to him. What she can offer him that Nat can't in that moment. Lottie believes Javi is alive, and Travis wants to believe, he wants to choose faith/Lottie, even if what Nat is offering is more tangible.
(Then you have the fact this scene is intercut with Jackie's body on the pyre? The girl he lost his virginity to? The girl who died as a result of sleeping with him/a refusal of faith? That's interesting. Might have to think on that part a little more.)
Sex is a good way to make this point tbh, because its so corporeal. Which makes you think it would be at odds with the spiritual, but its kind of not? In fact, I would say it's the human experience most regulary referenced in relation to the soul and religious devotion. Travis thinks he has to choose between the two, but he doesn't, he's just conforming to an expectation. Yellowjackets is seemingly so about balance (e.g. two realities, spiritual vs scientific, nature symbolism, Tai/other Tai, Shauna being unbalanced after losing Jackie/her other half, and the concept of taking one life as payment for another). In particular, it appears to be about how we so often force ourselves to conform to one ideal or another, when our true selves would be much happier sat somewhere in the middle, balancing two or more aspects.
So yeah, for me that scene represents the spiritual battle going on inside Travis, and Lottie is the visual manifestation of his faith. It's just his trauma, the ritualistic sexual assault he experinced during doomcoming, has resulted in a struggle to separate religious and sexual devotion.














