#ultravioletaria

It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything on this account but I think about it literally everyday.

So right now I have a piece of glass stuck in my foot and am stressing tf out.

It’s currently 12 am where I am and nothing is open so I have to wait to go to the urgent care at 8am tomorrow.

Oh man, all I have to say is that 2024 was certainly a year for me. Some much good came but also a lot of bad, but I'm beginning to learn from the bad things.

I've been on a journey of improving my mental health because I realized that was making everything harder for me. Even just trying to exist day to day was (and can still be) rough and I'm doing everything I can to make that better. I'm still only in my 20s so I know that I shouldn't know everything yet- but jeez I really struggle! and I'm sure lots of you do as well.

I would love to talk with you guys more on here and use the blog as it was meant to be, a safe space. If you are following my main writing blog, I will spare you with the details there. But here, oh man, the cat's out of the bag.

Sometimes, I'm very excited and happy, and other times (probably most of the time) I'm very dark and melancholic so please feel free to mute me if you need a break from that. Just being honest lol.

It's been a hot minute since I've posted on here, so here goes my monthly rant 😅:

Let's see, work is still annoying but I've made it less annoying by telling my bosses that they aren't good at their job- in a professional manner of course 😏. Long story short I finally got tired of their bullshitting about how everyone needs to do better at their job and I pointed out that they aren't even good at their job and they couldn't tell me I was wrong when i provided LOTS of examples. This has resulted in me getting two new workers for my department as well as a (potential) raise! I could talk more about this later about how I achieved this but really it was through trial and error (and dealing with the discomfort of pushing myself to speak up). For once in my life, opening my mouth and telling the truth has gotten me rewarded. We'll see how long that lasts though.

My cat was throwing up two days in a row last week which has been sort of worrying but lately this week he seems fine so I'm wondering it he had a large hairball in his throat or if he simply was a dumbass and ate something he wasn't supposed too. Could be either one 🤷🏾‍♀️. If he does it again I'm shipping him straight to the vet.

Oh- and I wrote a really long chapter of my fic which was really good! It took a lot of energy out of me so I have to recuperate this week and start up again next week. Gonna work on my Youtube content this week.

My husband got me vocal lessons for Christmas so I'm about to begin that. Please pray for me and the teacher so i don't ruin both our eardrums 🙏🏾

Other than that, my mental health has been a lot better this month so far. The reasons being: I got my IUD removed (it just wasn't for me foreal, too much bleeding. I'm back to the nuvaring ✨ ), I fired my therapist (long story short i have very high expectations for therapists and the past three I've had were complete jokes), I've gotten back to my normal exercise routine, and I've been listening to more health and wellness podcasts that help keep me motivated and educated about how to deal with this thing called life.

I know that was a lot but I have more.... that I'm not gonna share bc I'll be writing forever. Maybe next time.

Hope you guys are doing well!

My job has been stressing me out because of how demanding it’s being lately. Leaving little to no time for doing anything that makes me feel like myself.

I know this is only temporary but god do I feel like I’m stuck in this dystopian life sometimes.

𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕔𝕒𝕟 𝕔𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕞𝕖 𝔸𝕣𝕚𝕒 ✨

𝕋𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕚𝕤 𝕞𝕪 𝕡𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕠𝕟𝕒𝕝 𝕓𝕝𝕠𝕘 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕞𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕖𝕩𝕡𝕣𝕖𝕤𝕤 𝕞𝕪𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕗 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕗𝕦𝕟.

𝔽𝕖𝕖𝕝 𝕗𝕣𝕖𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕒𝕤𝕜 𝕞𝕖 𝕒𝕟𝕪𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘. 𝕎𝕖 𝕔𝕒𝕟 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕒 𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 𝕒𝕤 𝕝𝕠𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦'𝕣𝕖 𝕟𝕠𝕥 𝕓𝕖𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒 𝕔𝕠𝕞𝕡𝕝𝕖𝕥𝕖 𝕒𝕤𝕤, 𝕒𝕤 𝕀 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕟𝕠𝕥 𝕙𝕖𝕤𝕚𝕥𝕒𝕥𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕤𝕝𝕒𝕪 𝕪𝕠𝕦.