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it never gets easier but somehow we survive. we face many hard moments in life thinking we will never survive or never get through it, yet we do. then now we look back at all those times thinking how silly and ridiculous the situation was. you might even laugh. can you remember being a small child getting in trouble or yelled at by your parents for something; being so overly worried and upset because you may never get that toy back or never go out and play with the neighbor kids again? you over thought the whole situation completely. you laugh now. but at that moment in time it was not even the slightest of funny. to you as a small child it was a real problem. now, can you think of a moment in middle school/ high school, where you has a test or a project. your whole life depended on passing it or getting a good grade. thoughts rush into your head like..."will i have to do it all over again and get behind?" "will i even graduate now?" "are my parents going to be completely disappointed in me and disown me?" you would put your heart and soul into this thing ending up just to get that bad grade or not pass. tears running down your cheeks maybe? turns out that you did indeed still graduated and life went on .you survived! you might look back on that now thinking "why did i stress over that subject so much?" you smirk at the memory thinking how silly it really was. next think of a time in your life when you felt a strong crush or love for a person. wanting to be with them so very much. it consumes your thoughts. the way the look, smile, stand and smell. this driving you crazy because there is some obstacle between you and this person you so very much desire. you don't know what your going to do. your thoughts might have been something like this, "how can i get their attention." how can i impress them?" or even "what if they end up with someone else other than me?" ouch. not a good thought to have, then one day you see or hear something about that person you had yourself so worked up about and now all the sudden your thinking "thank goodness i didn't go through with trying to get their attention." "what a jerk." "how could someone be so awful." you look back and laugh. you can't believe you were even attracted to this person. life is funny. more onto later years, you have your first job mishap, first time late or it's your first time missing a bill, first time fender bender, we can keep listing scenarios that have happened in life. the point in this is all those moments you thought your not going to make it and you did and you look back today and think if that same situation were to happen again you most likely wouldn't worry the way you did back in that moment. and if you are right now going through some life changes that you feel like your not going to get through. just remember of that time as a kid getting in trouble and how silly it was, but you survived. think of that time that you go out alive thinking you wouldn't and remember that right now in this moment in time, you are going to make it just fine!

I don't even write my texts, I have 1000 monkeys typing away on iPads and I send whatever's most coherent

4 years of different programming syntaxes and file naming conventions has totally ruined my normal typing ability. I can't go a paragraph without camel caseing something, I no longer automatically see something likeThis and think "whoops that's wrong".