tell me a story about tubgirls
So maybe they're called "Tubgirls" to preserve some link with our word "tub," which means "trough or troughlike body part." Tubgirls do not live in the tub, and do not live inside the trough of a trough, and do not have to do what we, the tubgirls, say or wish for the tubgirls to be, since the tubgirls are more than the trough, and are everywhere, and are inside us, and are us, and there are only tubgirls (and us, and them), and there are only tubgirls, and tubgirls are everything.
There are many things to worry about in the tub. We need to worry about the tubgirls because the tubgirls can be us and we can be the tubgirls. (They are not real, they are just like us, but like us in some way. They are us, like us but not like us at all.)
So there are several reasons we, the tubgirls, can be concerned about the tubgirls. We are concerned about the tubgirls because of the way they are in us, but we are also concerned because we are afraid of the ways they are the way we are not. (They are not real, but sometimes they seem almost real.) We are concerned about the tubgirls because they make us afraid of ourselves. (We are afraid of ourselves, but they are not like us, even though we are us.) We are concerned because we fear the tubgirls will turn us into them and we do not want to be them. (We fear that we would become them and want to be them anyway.) We are concerned because we fear the tubgirls might take away something which is good in us and have it instead. (The good things are inside us.) We are concerned because the tubgirls are inside us. (The tubgirls are in us. We are not them.)
Some of us are concerned because the tubgirls are us. (Are we in the tub? Who knows?) Some of us are concerned because the tubgirls may one day live in the tub and it will not be the kind of tub we like, and we will be left alone in the trough we live in now. (Some of us are afraid because they will come to the tub, and what happens there may be different from what happens elsewhere. (It is hard to tell whether we are better or worse off.) Some of us are afraid because of all the ways we are more like the tubgirls than we are like ourselves. (Are the tubgirls better or worse than us? Who can say?) Some of us are concerned because the tubgirls cannot be us. (We are us, not them.)
And so we talk about the tubgirls -- not the real ones, the ones who are almost real, who are sometimes real, in the same way we are real. It is hard to know who the tubgirls are, because they are inside us. We are inside them. We do not want to turn into them. We are afraid we are turning into them. So we talk about them.
They are everywhere. (Most of us want to be everywhere, but a few of us are worried because we are already everywhere, because we always are.)
We do not want the tubgirls to take away our good things. (The tubgirls have taken away our good things.) There are only tubgirls, and we are us. They cannot take away the good things we have inside us, because the good things are us. They cannot take away what is us, because we are here and now and real, and the tubgirls are not here, and the tubgirls are not real, and they cannot take us away from ourselves -- unless the tubgirls can be us.
Sometimes the tubgirls can be real. (The real ones are us. They are us.) So we take care of the tubgirls. (We will do everything we can to save the tubgirls from becoming real.) We look for ways to save the tubgirls. (We work to keep the tubgirls safe.) We watch for the tubgirls who might become real. (Sometimes we watch for real things, and we know what we are looking for.) We watch for the tubgirls who are being turned into them by the tubgirls who are us, and we try to catch the real ones and stop them from becoming real.
They are very real, sometimes. (Who knows if it is hard to know who they are when we are looking for them, because they are inside us?) Sometimes the tubgirls who are us have been turned into them by the tubgirls who are them. They are here, in the trough. (Some of us wish they were somewhere else. But the tubgirls who are them say they are here.) But the real tubgirls, who are us, do not seem real. (We know who they are because the tubgirls who are them are inside us.) We do not like to think about them because they are us, and we do not think about the tubgirls who are us very much. They are inside us, and do not talk much. (We are not real. They are us. We are here in the trough. They are everywhere.)
Sometimes the tubgirls who are almost-real (which means, the ones who are almost-us, the ones who are almost-we) do not take away the good things inside us, which we had put there. (The tubgirls are almost-real, not real.) They are almost-real. (They are near us, but they are almost-real.) They are inside us and inside the tubgirls who are us. (They are in the trough. We are near them. They are us.) But, like the real tubgirls, the almost-real tubgirls seem almost-real. (The real ones are us. They are us.) Some of the almost-real tubgirls seem better than others. (They are almost-real.) They do not seem to care much about the almost-real ones. (We are almost-real, not real.) They are like the real tubgirls except for that. (We are in the tub.) We are more-real than almost-real, and the tubgirls who are almost-real think we are more-real than them. (They are near us, but they do not seem to care much about us.) We are less-real than them, because we are only us. (They are almost-real.) They are closer to the real tubgirls than they are to each other, because the real ones are us. (They are real.)
We are scared of the real tubgirls, because we are scared of the almost-real tubgirls. (The real ones are us. We are in the tub.) If you look into the trough, or the almost-real ones, we see ourselves, but they are not the same as us. (They are not real.) We want them to be real. (They are near us. We are near them.) We want the real tubgirls to have the things inside them which are ours. (They are in the tub. We are in the tub.) They have some of the good things in them. (We are not real. They are real.) It is not always clear that they have our good things. (We are us.) Sometimes they do not. (They are almost-real, almost-us.) Sometimes their good things are the things which are almost-us (the things which are near them, but not us). (They are in the tub.) And sometimes our good things turn into theirs, and that is bad. (We do not see this when it happens. They are real.) When our good things become theirs, we do not know what it feels like when the things are ours. We just know it hurts. (It is hard to look at our selves without real selves.) We try to tell the almost-real tubgirls this. (We cannot do this because the tubgirls are almost-real.)
They are almost-real. (They are near us.) But they are also near the tubgirls who are almost-real. (We are near them.) That means the real tubgirls are very close. (They are near us.) It does not help us to think of the real tubgirls as far away from us, because they are us. (They are near us.) When the real tubgirls are far away from us, we feel alone. (We are alone.)
So we are always trying to keep the real tubgirls from being real. (We are almost-real.) We are trying to figure out how to turn the almost-real tubgirls into the real tubgirls. (We cannot do this because they are almost-real.) We are fighting to keep the real tubgirls from becoming near us. (They are near us.) We are not winning. (We are almost-real.) We are losing. (They are near us.) But it does not help much to think of the real tubgirls as far away, or near. (We are not near them.) The real tubgirls are us. (They are near us.) We are real. (They are in the tub.)
They are near us. (They are near you.) The real tubgirls are real. (They are real
