#tw:self-harm

TRIGGER WARNING FOR: self-harm, suicidal thoughts, self-hatred, ableism, trauma, emotional abuse, emotional destress and panic/anxiety attacks.

If any of these topics make you uncomfortable, for the sake of your mental health, don't read this chapter. If this chapter doesn't accurately represent depression and self-harm, feel free to educate me on how to improve.

Really, you CANNOT have anything nice on this blasted craftworld! Chapter 15 of Deathwatch Daycare is out! :D And I've seen your votes! Don't worry, it won't be too long before things look up again. But before we get there... Some little details have to be ironed out first. :) OH RIGHT!! And Trigger Warning for suicidal thoughts and attempt on this one!

eds / @chimneyz <3

Eds!! Hiii💛 thanks for being here!

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“Ev- Buck…” Tommy’s voice gets choked up with emotion as he gathers the courage to finish the sentence. He unconsciously grabs Evan’s left wrist to run his fingers over the smooth skin - old habits die hard I guess - because this whole situation is making him anxious and kind of frustrated so he needs something to ground him.

‘You’re using him again for your own selfish needs!’ His brain screams at him, but he is a weak man and he also needs Evan more than breathing.

“Yes, of course it w-“ he replies in a shaky voice without knowing what he actually wants to say when he feels several protruding scars covering the otherwise soft skin. His heart rate picks up and he feels his vision blurring.

“Sweetheart?” The pet name slipping out before Tommy could do anything about it.

Bonus (Part 1 of 2): How I Created ‘Old Scars’

For those who are interested, here are some details about the images used in my mood board* for A Song of Ash & Sky by @allgirlsareprincesses. While most can be found easily on Pixabay (a great resource for free/royalty free HQ images), there are few that can’t be retrieved through a straight forward search since they’ve been specifically altered for this purpose.

For the thumbnail inspired by the chapter, “Old Scars,” I snuck in the Weeping Monk’s/Lancelot’s actual back scars as a texture on top of the wood! If you have editing/design software at your disposal, I highly recommend experimenting w/blending modes as you can create various effects from them. The multiply mode in AI worked just fine for me here.

*Font: Mason Sans OT (from the Mason Font Family) Software: Adobe Illustrator & Photoshop**

Any past injuries?

Oh definitely, name an injury and he can probably give you a story about it?

That scar on his palm? Sword fight with Siegfried/Auspicious.

That scar on his knee? Being thrown into a dungeon by a changeling.

The faint lines on his neck? Being strangled by a changeling.

His very well hidden limp? Fucked up his leg a bit.

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Two weeks has gone by after that ‘incident’ he did to himself with silver. His body was still healing and the scars were forming around the words. They were healing pretty fast and the scars were there but some words were still noticeable and easy to read. After some hard thinking and self reflecting he was stupid to ever had done what he had did to himself. Lots of people came to his rescue thanks to Alec being the best bird ever. And some came after to scold at him but he needed it. Edmund told him that he should talk to Andy and build that trust again, Ciaran and Lily were so kind to him of helping him heal and comforting him. He even made amends with Dhani and cleared the air that they truly didnt love each other romantically. He set the boundaries with them as well which should have been made to begin with. But now its been a waiting game with Andy. They did text each other the other day which made him really really happy and that he really missed him. 

Dougal was back home cleaning up the house getting the house ready for Andy to return. Alec was perching on his stick watching him clean the kitchen. “I know bud you are happy that Andy talked to us and I am too.” He smiled at the bird before hearing the door bell ring. “Who could that be?” He dries his hands and walks over to the door opening it. He looks around seeing no one was there but then looks down to see something he never ever wanted to see. “ANDY!” He gently but quickly picks the boy up and walks over to the couch laying him down. “Oh my god Andy are you okay!? Andy wake up!”