#trans!yang

“You wouldnt get it,” Weiss said as she sat down the dress she held in front of her. “I have an image that I have to uphold. If anyone found out I wasnt really born a girl, my family would be embarrassed.” 

Yang rolled her eyes. “What makes you think I wouldnt understand?” 

“Because you’re… you. If you came out to be a man tomorrow, no one would bat an eye about it. You wont have people hounding you down about who you used to be or make a mockery of what you are… you’d just live a quiet life.” 

“That’s not entirely true.” 

Salem: IMMEDIATE TESTICULAR TORSION!

Yang: *Falls to the ground, clutching her groin* GAAAHH! FUCKFUCKFUCK

Jaune: ...

Jaune: You know, I'm pretty comfortable in my body, but for once I'm happy I'm not cis-

Salem: Instantaneous Period!

hey katie :3

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“Mama,” the small child said, pulling at her cloak. Summer Rose looked down and smiled.

“What is it, my little Dragon?” she asked, scooping the child up. They squirmed in her grip for a moment before settling down. She hummed, prompting them to respond.

“Oh yeah!” the child said. “I’m a girl!” Her little lavender eyes shone and Summer smiled at her.

“Of course, Sunflower,” she said, nuzzling her cheek with her nose before pressing a loud kiss to it. The girl giggled. “Why don’t you go tell your papa and sister?” The girl nodded and and wriggled. Summer sat her on the ground and patted the top of her head. “Don’t run in the house, Yang!” she called after her retreating back.

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I only wrote her coming out to Summer because I am. Tired.

I hope you like it!

Yang put up a fake smile as she listened to Ruby and Weiss prattle on about the boys they were dating. It wasnt that she didnt like Mercury or Neptune, or talking about boys or girls or anything like that, but the more she listened, the more she wondered if anyone could ever love her. Well, more than just her family did. 

And yet, it felt like a dream that could never be hers. 

When she started to transition, she had started to think about what it’d be like to have a boyfriend, to have someone that could care for her and love her, to make her feel like a real woman. But over the years, the more she tried to find that love, the further away it seemed to get. Most guys stayed clear from her, and those that didnt seem to not want her for her, only as a prize. No matter how feminine she presented herself, it never seemed to be enough. 

“Are you going to answer Weiss’s question, Yang?” Ruby asked. 

Yang paused for a moment as she looked up from her lunch. “I-I uh… I didnt hear it.” 

Weiss rolled her eyes and scoffed. “Of course you didnt. I asked if you had your eyes set on anyone.” 

“I dont-” Yang put her fork down and stood up with her tray. “I should go study.” 

“Just dont be late to class.” 

Yang gave a small nod and let her smile drop as she walked away from her team. It didnt feel like she was allowed to have a crush, much less allowed to talk about anyone she was supposed to like. Not that she had really met anyone that she would admit having a crush on. None of the boys caught her eye and-

“Everything okay, Yang?” 

Yang nearly dropped her tray when she heard Blake’s voice. “Yeah, I’m fine.” 

Blake slowly followed behind. “Is this about what Ruby and Weiss were talking about.” 

“No, of course not,” Yang lied 

“You’re about as bad of a liar as Ruby is. They struck a nerve, didnt they?” 

Yang dumped the trash off her tray and put it away. “Its not that its… I love that they’re dating people that can love them, but I… I’m not allowed to have what they have.” 

“Why wouldnt you be?” 

“Because I’m… different.” 

“Being different doesnt mean you cant have love.” 

“It does when I’m not a girl like them!” Yang spat out, eyes going red for a moment. As her eyes went back to violet, she paused and looked away from Blake. “I should go-” 

“You’re as much of a girl like the rest of us,” Blake calmly said as she took Yang’s wrist to stop her. “I know a quiet spot where we can talk more about it. To put your mind to ease.” 

Yang looked away from Blake for a moment until she felt her gently pull on her wrist. With a silent nod, she started to follow her. Her mind raced with thoughts about everything she thought Blake would want to talk to her about. She followed through the halls and up to the rooftop, taking a few deep breaths of fresh air as she stared out over Beacon and the forest. 

“The view’s great, isnt it?” Blake asked as she sat down and stared out. “Figured its a quiet place for us to talk.” 

Yang sat down next to Blake and let out a soft sigh. “Why out here?” 

“To be alone. Easier to talk about things that way.” 

“I guess.” 

Blake gently put an arm around her. “What makes you think you’re so different that you dont deserve love?” 

“I-I…” Yang took a breath and pulled her knees to her chest. “If I tell you, you wont look at me the same way.” 

“Because you were born a boy?” 

“How did you-” 

“You’re not as quiet as you think you are with your medication,” Blake said with a smile as she pointed to her twitching bow. “But that doesnt matter. What matters is that you’re happy as yourself.” 

“Being happy with myself wont help others love me.” 

“It wont, but you still dont have to worry about that. There’s someone who loves you already.” 

“Ruby doesnt-” Yang’s words stopped as she caught a glance of the blush that started to cross Blake’s cheeks. A blush started to cross her own as she felt a hand on her thigh. Without another thought, she put an arm around Blake and pulled her close. “Thanks. I needed this.” 

Blake gave her a smile. “I know a place we can go to after classes tomorrow to eat. Just the two of us.” 

Yang smiled as she adjusted her jacket, making sure it sat on her shoulders without feeling too tight. Her hand paused as it ran over the trans flag patch she had sewn into one of her sleeves, a warmth rising in her chest. It was a gift from Ruby, a reminder that no matter what, she should be happy about the person she was. That she wasnt alone. 

She pulled her fingers away from the patch and relaxed once everything felt right. Then, she grabbed her keys from the top of her dresser and started to make her way out of the apartment. She stopped just outside the door and took a deep breath of the crisp, spring air. “Are you ready to go, Blake?” 

“Coming!” Blake called out from the apartment. She walked over, pinning a small trans flag pin to her shirt. “Are you sure you want to do this?” 

“I do. Nervous, but I’m ready.” 

“If you’re too nervous, we can tell May and Robyn that you’re not feeling up to it-” 

“Blake, I’m fine.” Yang gently took Blake’s hand and squeezed it. “Its… nerve wracking… sure, but May was there for me in Atlas when I was having doubts about myself, so I need to be there for her, to show her that I’m proud of who I am. Besides, its just helping her with a booth at Beacon to help kids questioning their gender find the resources they need to help figure themselves out. To show they’re not alone and that they have a future to look forward to.” 

Blake nodded and smiled at Yang. “I want to make sure this isnt going to be overwhelming for you.” 

Yang shrugged and started to walk with Blake. “It might be and I can step away from it if I need to. Its not like I have to speak in front of an assembly or anything like that. Just a booth that I can answer questions and point people to where they need to go. And I’ll have you, May, and Robyn with me, so I’m sure I’ll be fine.” 

“You really have changed, havent you?” 

“I have.” 

“If you need to dip out early, let me know and I can find an excuse for us.” 

“I know, and thank you.” Yang stopped and pulled Blake into a kiss, holding her close. “And thank you for sticking with me.” 

A small blush crossed Blake’s cheeks. “I told you all those years ago that I love you for you. And that’s never going to change. Boy, girl, something between or both… I love you no matter what. And I’m proud of you.” 

Yang held a white dress to herself as she looked at her reflection in the mirror. The fingers of her mechanical hand clenched the dress tightly as she tried to imagine herself wearing it once more. She could remember a time when she was ecstatic to try on anything feminine. Skirts, dresses, anything that could help her feel more like the girl she was. But now, as she stared at the dress, it didnt feel like her anymore. 

She slowly lowered the dress to put it away, pausing when she finally noticed Blake behind her. “How long have you been watching?” 

“Long enough to be reminded how you looked in that dress.” Blake wrapped her arms around Yang, resting her chin on her shoulder. “Thinking about wearing it again?” 

“I’m not so sure it’d fit anymore. Besides, its not exactly me anymore.” 

“Then what is?” 

“I’m… I’m not sure.” Yang pulled away from Blake and folded the dress up. “Before Beacon, I would’ve told you that all that frilly stuff was what I wanted. But now, after everything we’ve been through…” 

“I think I can understand.” Blake sat down and looked over Yang. “When I left the White Fang, it took a bit for me to figure myself out again. Like I lost a piece of myself.” 

Yang nodded and sat down next to Blake. “I spent so much time worrying about you and Ruby and all the rest of our friends that I stopped worrying about what I wanted.” 

“Now that we have time to rest, we can spend time figuring you out.”

“And what did you have in mind?” 

“We can go shopping tomorrow. Though, I think what you’ve been wearing suits you.” 

“You think so?” 

Blake nodded and leaned against Yang. “Do you not?” 

“I do, but I want to find something more that screams me.” Yang moved a hand to Blake’s back and rubbed it. “Figure myself out beyond just being a huntress or trans.” 

“You have plenty of time to figure it out. And we can start tomorrow.” 

Yang took a deep breath to try to relax herself, nervous. And yet, she felt calm with Blake next to her. A small smile crossed her lips as her nerves slowly started to fall away. As much as she dreaded going shopping, she knew everything was going to be alright. 

Yang looked up at Mercury and her heart skipped a beat when she realized how close he was. Everything had moved so quickly and she didnt realize she was pinned until after she realized she could feel his breath on her neck. 

Mercury pulled away and smirked at her. “So that’s three for me and… two for you now? I think I wn.” 

“Y-yeah, o-of course.” Yang slowly picked herself up and glanced at Mercury. Her heart thumped in her chest, though her mind told her something about this wasnt right. “Guess you win this time.” 

“You did good blondie,” Mercury said as he tossed a water bottle to Yang. “Maybe we can try this again before the tournament.” 

“If I didnt know any better, I’d think you were doing this to learn all of my secrets.” 

“Maybe I am, maybe I’m not. But it doesnt matter anyway.” 

Yang shook her head and took a breath to try to calm her nerves. “S-so, you uh… you doing anything this weekend?” 

“Probably going to hit up the local bar with Emerald.” He paused to take a swig from his bottle and sighed. “Though, I wish she’d quit asking me to go. I know I want to start dating, but I’m not exactly desperate enough to start dating the guys who do that kind of thing.” 

Yang felt her heart sink as she listened to those words. “O-oh, so, you’re into guys then?” 

“Yeah, though I’m a bit picky. Most of the guys at the bar are kinda like Jaune. You know, limp noodles that dont have much backbone but like to try to play off that they’re tough.” A smile crossed Mercury’s lips as he spoke. “I want someone who’s not afraid to pin me to the ground and make me theirs.” 

“Oh. Well, I hope you have better luck this weekend.” 

“We’ll see.” 

Yang let out a quiet sigh as she watched Mercury walk off. Of course the guy she fell for wouldnt be interested in her. She paused when her eyes caught her reflection: hair pulled back in a messy ponytail and her chest flattened from the angle she saw herself in. A thought came to her mind as she looked a bit longer and a smile crossed her lips. She knew exactly what she needed to do. 

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“This is ridiculous,” Weiss said as she watched Yang fuss with a binder. “Dressing as a guy just for a date is taking things too far, dont you think? “

“Its not *just* for a date, Weiss. If things work out-” 

“And what makes you think things will work out between you and Mercury just because you’re dressing like a guy?” 

Yang sighed and looked at herself in the mirror. Even with the binder, she still looked extremely feminine. “Its… it’s not about that… not entirely…” 

“Not… entirely?” 

“We all know that everything I do is… preformative. The dresses, the long hair, joking around… all of it is my attempt to try to take my mind off of not feeling… right. And… well… maybe part of dressing like this is so I can date Mercury, but on the other hand, if this is me…” 

“Then you’ll probably want to make sure you’re as much of the part as you can.” Weiss walked over to Yang and pulled her hair back into a more masculine fashion. “

“You’re going to help me?” 

“Of course I am. If this is who you end up being, then that’s who you are. Besides, the last thing I want you to do is make a fool of yourself and make it seem like you’re trying to use him.” 

Yang nodded and put on a nice dress shirt and slacks and looked at herself in the mirror. She frowned when she saw her hips still making her look feminie and her chest not as flat as she had hoped. “Well.. this is better than what it could be.” 

Weiss pulled away from Yang and smiled at her handiwork. “You’ll be fine. All you have to do is be honest with yourself and who you are, alright?” 

“Right.” 

Yang took a breath and walked out of the dorm once she finished. All she had to do was find Mercury and talk to him, tell him how she… how he really felt. That this is who he wants to be-

“Yang, is that you?” 

Yang froze and turned to see Mercury behind him. He cleared his throat and tried to make his voice sound a bit deeper. “O-oh, Merc, I uh… I thought you were at your dorm.” 

“I wanted to take a bit of a walk before heading out with Emerald.” Mercury smirked and walked around Yang. “So, what’s the occasion?” 

“I-I uh… Its uh… complicated…” 

“Complicated, huh? Well, if its that complicated, maybe I can help.” 

“Help how?” 

Mercury smirked and tossed a pill bottle at Yang. “Take one of these and then we can head out for a bit of real fun. Assuming you can handle it.” 

Yang nodded and opened the pill bottle to look at the pink and blue capsules inside. “This… isnt going to kill me, is it?” 

“No, it wont. And I promise you wont regret it.” 

Blake nervously watched Yang study, feeling her heart pound in her chest. She knew exactly what she wanted to say, and what she wanted to ask, but every time she tried, the words couldnt come out. She knew Yang would be accepting, after all, the blonde was openly trans herself, but Blake still couldnt figure out how to tell her that she was trans too. Or ask her crush on a date for once. 

“Do you need something?” 

Blake hesitated as she realized Yang was talking to her. She quickly sat down, nervously tapping her fingers. “A-actually… I was… I was hoping that I could… talk to you about a couple things.” 

Yang nodded and closed her book, giving her full attention to Blake. “Sure. What about?” 

“Oh… well.. I ummm…” Blake slowly started to feel the words slip away from her for the umpteenth time. She took a deep breath, trying to keep herself calm and to get the words she wanted back. “I umm… I… wanted to tell you… a secret I’ve been keeping.” 

“And what kind of secret is that?” 

“I’m… I dont think… no… I know I’m not a girl.” 

Yang looked at her curiously. “So… you’re a boy then?” 

“No… at least… I dont think so…” Blake sighed, trying to get her thoughts straight. “I’m not a girl, but I’m not exactly a boy. I’m… something between. Or… maybe neither. I like being called handsome, and being called she and her still feels right, but being a girl… just isnt.” 

Yang smiled a bit as she listened to Blake. “So, you still want to use she/her, but would rather hear me tell you how handsome I think you are?” 

Blake blushed, her cheeks starting to grow warm. “W-well.. I mean.. I wouldnt go that far… but… you know… it… does sound nice.” 

“Maybe I can help you figure things out a bit.” 

“Please. We can talk about things over dinner tonight. Just… me and you.” 

This time Yang started to blush as she listened to Blake’s words. “W-wait, are you… asking me out on a date?” 

“O-only if you want to! I mean… we could just go as friends if its too awkward. Just two gals being pals, right?” 

“I have no problem with this being a date.” Yang looked away, trying to keep Blake from noticing her blush. “There’s a nice little fish joint in Patch we can go to. You know, just the two of us.” 

Blake smiled a bit, still feeling nervous. “That sounds great. I’ll see you then.” 

Yang nodded, watching Blake walk off. “Y-yeah, of course, see you then.” 

Weiss rolled her eyes as she watched the two. “Yang, you do remember she’s on our team, right? You’ll see her in the dorm when we’re done studying.” 

Yang hesitated for a moment before dropping her head onto the table. “Gods… I’m such an idiot…” 

“You’re not an idiot.” Ruby put an arm on Yang’s shoulder. “You just need to relax. Its just Blake. You just need to do what Weiss and I did.” 

Weiss shook her head. “Absolutely not.” 

Ruby grinned a bit. “Oh, you know you liked it when I asked you out to pick out a new binder for you.” 

Weiss blushed and moved her hands to cover her chest a bit. “Not so loud. I’m still not out yet, remember?” 

Ruby nodded and kissed Weiss’s cheek. “I know. And your secret is still safe with me.”