#tracy marks

"A twelfth house Sun indicates humility, but it can also indicate inferiority feelings and poor self-esteem. Early in life, you may have received messages from your parents which led you to believe you have no right to exist, that your personal desires are selfish and unimportant, and that you possess an innate badness or unworthiness for which you must atone. Perhaps nothing you did or said was considered good enough, or your parents were narcissistically absorbed in their own worlds, and provided little support for your fragile, developing ego. If, as a child, you harbored deep-seated guilt and often felt deserving of punishment, you may, as an adult, create situations in your life which make you feel guilty or which punish you for some real or imagined wrong."

12th House & Family Dynamics

"The inflated, ideal self-image and the demeaned self are related. When we are loved for who we are, in our totality, we become capable of expressing and valuing all facets of ourselves. We do not need to develop an inflated self-image to compensate, or to hold inwardly to an ideal self which is worthy of love. We develop our self-esteem through being and developing our true selves. But when parts of ourselves are rejected, when we are loved only when we are perfect (or believe that we might be loved if only we were more perfect), we learn that all hope of meeting our needs lies in holding to and actualizing the ideal, rather than being who we really are. We seek satisfaction in life by rigorously shaping ourselves to fit our ideal images, or by seeking refuge in fantasies of future possibilities and potentials. To test those fantasies in reality is threatening, because our self may not be substantial enough to risk failure and the collapse of the inner images which sustain us."

Breakaway

Mutable T-Squares