#trace please interact

I feel so affirmed rn, like just hearing a real person affirm my radqueer identity was so nice.

It's actually fucking true guys. People in real life don't care. No one gives a shit outside of the internet. Antis only exist online as they're only brave enough to hate online. Online, you'll be treated like shit for being transracial, yeah, but in real life, people are much less hostile and more understanding.

Genuinely just do what you want. Be that race. You only live once, and our time here is very short. We should all just live the way we want to instead of forcing ourselves in a box because "it's not accepted by society" yet.

You're not hurting or mocking anyone for existing🤍

ignoring the weird assumption that all trace people are ciswhite transitioning to an ethnicity that isn't white, the reason why many ctdr people have alt accounts is because we are literally considered insane and weird by a decent chunk of people and there is social change that needs to be made before a majority of us can be open about it

think about it this way: if all of your friends really really hated people who love pasta, but you were secretly a pasta lover and wanted to express your feelings, you would probably make an alternative account so they don't make fun of you, drop you as a friend, or possibly physically hurt you, right? kind of an absurd comparison, but you get my drift. alt accounts are often used for ctdr people's own social, emotional, or physical safety.

saying that "being able to take being a person of colour on and off" makes someone or something bad is also exclusionary to mixedrace and/or whitepassing bipoc, as it's sometimes safer to just... pretend that you're white in certain situations (i have a personal experience i could use as an example, but that's a yap for another day). it is a privilege that we can lie our way out of situations where someone is being racist, yes, but it doesn't make us any less of our ethnicity

I genuinely hate being transwhite, and since I'm a transracial who experiences racial dysphoria at a very high rate, I have no choice but to either transition or feel like this forever. It's also starting to get harder to find support. You could search up transrace positivity just to find a bunch of antis (who are incredibly aggressive btw) and it just fucks up your mental health because there's no support in this world for you and you just feel like you're not meant for this world, that you're inherently evil by being radqueer and deserve everything. You're left not knowing why you deserve this, you just know you do for simply existing wrong.

Even being a ciswhite person who wants to be japanese or asian would've been better because even if I still had dysphoria then, I'd still be seen as a "dumb, privileged, fetishizing" HUMAN. Cispoc to white people aren't even seen as that. We're seen as monsters, traitors, the lowest of the low, and get no sorrow or remorse when it comes to the hate.

I'm sorry for the vent. Please continue to see me as fully white. It's just really important to talk about racial dysphoria and how it can genuinely affect someone. Also the reality of being a transwhite person, fuelling white supremacists ego's by simply being this way and making poc angry at you. Both hate you and don't respect you. Our lives are filled with constant hate and shame, and there's no way out other than death, or forcing yourself to remain this way to keep the world satisfied.

Wore it at a concert at my local park.

Not talking about scottish people, they're lovely. It's more of white europeans in general. It makes me not want to be transwhite but that isn't really a choice in my case since I'll feel dysphoria anyway.

How do I become proud of myself again:// it's getting very hard to keep fighting.