eddie and volt with a touch starved reader?? Reader gets held gently for once in their life and they just break down crying in their arms. I think this would be very cute and im excited to see what you'll do with this request ^_^
I wrote this at work when we had to shut down yesterday and finally had a chance to polish it up.
Eddie & Volt x reader, angst(ish) more so yearning, reader is touch starved, allusions to rejection sensitivity dysphoria, based on my own experiences with touch starvation
not beta read!!!
How do I make this yearning poetic
You always avoided touch. No matter how much you craved it. Your past partners hardly wanted to hold your hand let alone hug or hold you. It became easier to avoid it than to ask for it. Wasn't it easier to avoid the matter in its entirety rather than face an inevitable rejection?
Regardless, you craved contact so badly it felt like the very sinew of your muscle was about to reach out of your skin and hold onto the first person you could see. It got worse as you gradually stopped leaving your home, and dear reader if you were ever wondering, agoraphobia and touch starvation do not mix very well at all.
The objects in your home respected your avoidance of some of their casual affections, Volt noting the way you find ways to shift out of his embrace as he guides you into the bar, Dirk watching you sidestep him when he rests his arm on your shoulder, he isn't mad he himself isn't a very touchy guy. Harper on the other hand did not take it well and you had to have a sit-down talk with her about how you didn't really like much contact like that.
It's after you help fix the Breaker Box and everything seems to get better that you realize just how terrible the ache in your chest had become. You still did not ask. But the boys noticed. Of course they did they noticed everything. You wished they'd stop noticing.
Eddie noticed when your hand would chase his as he sets a drink down for you, or the look on your face when his fingers brush yours while you hand him a wrench.
Volt noticed the way you stood closer to him, the time you were so tired that you had fallen asleep on his shoulder just before the show had started. He hated having to wake you. He hated the way you seemed to purposefully put space between you and him after that like you were ashamed.
Anyone who'd frequented the Breaker Box knew that Volt was a touchy person so seeing the two of you not really be..well, touchy with each other was strange. They knew the three of you had gotten together after the reset, how could they not? It was all Volt talked about.
Volt brought it up to Eddie, but Eddie mentioned that maybe you just didn't like to be touched. And so, Volt let it go.
Until he couldn't anymore of course.
There was a night when Eddie had maintenance to do that you couldn't help him with despite how much you really wanted to (something to do with the current, too dangerous to take you around, but you could wait upstairs with Volt for him to get back.)
So, you did just that. You waited upstairs with your knees hugged to your chest to make yourself as small as possible to give Volt room on the bed though you already didn't take up much.
"You can be closer Live wire I promise I don't bite." Volt teases "Well..that hard." He chuckles at himself, and you give him a soft smile before you move just an inch or so closer. He looks worried for a moment, just a split second, a twitch of his eyebrow, the spark in his eyes dimming a little bit before he speaks again and fully turns to face you.
"My dear, you know it's okay if you don't want to be touched right?" He asks, you nod pulling your bottom lip between your teeth and biting the skin off your bottom lip, his thumb reaches up slowly and pulls you lip out from your teeth. He moves slowly like he's worried he'll spook you.
"I do want you to." That's the problem. You fidget with the threads in the sheets. "i-" You're interrupted by the creaking of the door to their loft opening Eddie nods to you and doesn't say much before he goes and starts a shower, he'd been covered in what looked to be dirt.
You and Volt sit quietly for a good few minutes, he doesn't press, actually he doesn't really say anything it's a contrast to how he is during the open hours of the club, as if the minute he gets up here he lets himself be off for once. When Eddie comes out, towel wrapped around his hips while he digs through the dresser for a shirt you're able to speak up while he settles for the night.
"Can I.." You trail off trying to find the right words to say as Eddie moves closer so he can hear you better, Volt perks up shifting again on the bed to sit up and look at you. The right words don't come so in the end you just let whatever's in your head spill out of your mouth. "Can I lay on you?"
They both look surprised at this but after a second Eddie smiles and settles on the bed so you can lay between them. Volt wraps an arm around you waist as you settle on Eddie's chest it's like you'd done it a thousand times and it felt so good you could cry gods above how long had it been since you felt the warmth of another persons touch.
Volts hands running through your hair seem to break you apart, you don't even realize you were crying until Eddie cupped your face and turned it toward him.
"Baby what's wrong? Are you alright?" He asks attempting to get you to sit up not expecting you to cling to him, to get as close as you can, "Talk to me spark." He says.
You smile up at him through the tears. "Just really touch starved Eddie." You wipe your eyes and settle deeper against his chest. His arms wrap a little tighter around you. Behind you. Volt entwined his hand with Eddies across your waist and gives you a kiss on the crown of your head, you feel a little spark of static from it and can’t help the giggle that erupts from your mouth. Volt does it again, then again beginning to poke your sides to make you laugh more.
“You’re so perfect live wire.” He murmurs when you finally settle back down.
“I love you both so much. Thank you.” You say closing your eyes, the warmth made you sleepy.
“For what baby?” Eddie asks his brows furrowing,
“This?” You say but it comes out more like a question, Eddie shakes his head at you. “Don’t thank us for this. It’s not some luxury, we adore you, anyone who wouldn’t want to lie here with you is an idiot.” He runs one hands through your hair as he speaks his other on your chin tilting your face to look at him. “Do you understand?” You nod. “Okay. I love you.”
“I love you too.” A yawn breaks free and you three shift into a comfortable silence that puts you to sleep. You sleep better than you have in years there in their arms and overtime you don’t avoid their touch as badly anymore, you let yourself fall asleep on Volts shoulder or reach out for Eddies hand during his breaks at the bar.
I love you all, thank you so much for 209 followers MWAH
I am sleepy so goodnight
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