#torn mcl

Buccaneers star WR Chris Godwin out for season after suffering a torn MCL in the Bucs 9-0 loss to the Saints on Sunday.

I was gonna try and get my knee good enough so I could play next weekend. All of a sudden I decided I HAD to do it tonight. So I did!

I somehow managed to play with a completely severed acl and pcl as well as a torn mcl and meniscus. I didn’t even use the most restrictive brace so that I could have more movement.

I was able to run, defend, go into tackles and come out with the ball, and take solid shots. Definitely not as good as I am healthy, but it felt amazing to play. To do SOMETHING! 

Hello friends I have returned!

The day I found out about my injury (Thursday) was tough for a couple hours but I recovered soon enough. I just needed some time to chill and process.

So here’s how its working.

The knee has four main ligaments. One on the outside of the leg, one on the inside of the leg, and two crossing in the middle. 

I tore the inside of the leg ligament (mcl) and the two crossing inside (acl/pcl). The mcl was a partial tear. The acl and pcl tore clean from my tibia. 

The mcl can and will heal on its own though it wont be as tight. As for the acl and pcl: if i dont get surgery, I will lose both of those ligaments.

While I am confident I can play with only two ligaments, I would be nervous to do anything else active where I am not as intune with myself. Besides that, if anything were to happen to me (ie another knee injury), the chances are higher that I would tear my other two ligaments. Not to mention long term ramifications that can follow me into old age.

After some serious thinking, the answer is pretty obvious. I need to get the surgery.

That will happen as soon as the swelling goes does. It means lots of pre-rehab, surgery, and a lot more rehab. I wont be able to work for about 4 months. I was supposed to move out Saturday but cannot now that I won’t have income.

It is a difficult time, but I will survive. I’ve filled my time with drawing, reading, playing piano, and writing.

I started writing a fiction book. I’ve always wanted to and now I have all the time in the world. I am excited about that. It’s about Helen from Greek Mythology from her point of view. I feel in all mythology, she is only her beauty and a scapegoat-- a reason for Troy and Sparta to go to a war they already wanted to fight. I wanted to find her side of the story.

So that’s all for now! Thank you everyone for your support and kind messages. It truly does mean so much<3

I just got back from my dr appointment. It’s worse than I thought. I tore my mcl, acl, pcl, and damaged my meniscus. Basically, I tore 3/4 ligaments that stabalize my knee. Not good. Plus my cartilage which could lead to early arthritis. 

Not a good appointment. My doctor is highly recommending surgery. Without it, he doesn’t seem to think I can be an athlete. With it, he thinks that recreational soccer is the best that I can do.

I didn’t really care to go pro, but I liked having the option. I’m good enough. That looks like that’s out the window now.

It’s a rough time right now. I’m pretty upset. I am going to take a few days to pout and think over my options. Surgery or no surgery. I have no clue. I guess we’ll have to wait and see.

I probably wont be active while I take some time to cry and be sad. So the next couple of days. Thanks everyone for your support. Have a good weekend.

Negative thoughts are something that everyone has. It’s normal. It’s when you begin to accept those thoughts as reality and submit to them that is the problem.

When I was younger I was insanely Jealous™. I had borderline personality disorder (diagnosed) and severe anxiety. Overthinking and jealousy would consume me.

The main key of is mindfullness. Stay present. Know what you’re feeling and accept that this is what you feel. Now that you’ve recognized your emotion, we are going to combat it.

The key to positive thinking is making it a habit. 

It goes like this: you have a negative thought. You are mindful and you find your emotion. Let’s use my example of jealousy. “This guy that I’m interested likes this girl. It makes me upset and sick, and I hate this girl.” Now that you’ve targeted the emotion and thought, you are going to go against it by thinking three positive things. 

You have to work hard for this. 

My positive thoughts to these reactions were something like, “Oh, she’s very pretty!” “They’re cute together.” “I’m glad he’s happy.” “I don’t want anyone that wants someone else, so this is for the best.”

Do this for every. single. negative. thought.

It’s hard and annoying, but I promise you it works! After a while, correcting my negative thought with positive ones became a habit because I did it so much! Once my mind recognized a negative thought, it would get rid of it without me having to correct it. It’s pretty amazing.

Hi!

My name is Hailey. I am 23 years old. Welcome to my blog!

I started this blog because of a knee injury I sustained. I wanted a place where I could document my struggle. Besides that, I find that in my life I don’t have many people that seem to understand how I am feeling after this injury.

Tumblr is a great place to find community, and, with all the different blogs, there is bound to be someone that can understand how I feel and what I’m going through.

Because of my knee injury, I am going to need to change a lot about my life. I am going to change my activity level, my workout regiment, and my eating habits. As someone that grew up as an athelete, I’ve never needed to be extra strict on anything because I am naturally active and fit. 

I know that is going to change, and I could use all the support and community I can get.

So here’s a little about me:

I have played soccer since I was four.

I didn’t play much competitive soccer until I reached college.

I went to Mt. San Antonio College in Walnut for 2 1/2 years and was a walk on on the soccer team.

I recieved my associates in Kinesiology and Social Sciences.

After Mt. SAC, I attended Pfeiffer University in North Carolina.

I have just graduated with my Bachelors in Psychology. 

I have bipolar disorder which I disclose because it definitely affects my mental state during this difficult time.

I work at a foster home for medically fragile and traumatized infants and toddlers.

Besides soccer, I enjoy reading, writing, drawing, and playing piano.

Thanks for taking the time to read and joining me on this journey!