i kinda love adhd meds + my pen + just like, being horny?? like i have to pee a bit and i'm so so sensitive to it and it feels really really good to just do absolutely nothing about it
downside is i'd rather get off a microcosmic amount by bouncing my leg while being hyperfocused on reading horny tumblr posts, periodically working all 3 of my remaining brain cells in tandem to try and phrase one out until i'm satisfied with it instead of trying to push any extremes
so i don't cum and instead of getting (then, drinking) more water i post harder with an empty bottle and an increasingly dry mouth which i am definitely not starting to have any kind of pavlovian association between the sensation of and impending arousal. no. never. me? that's fucked up.















