#tmi whatever

the way I started 2025 literally suicidal and now I'm #thiriving 🥰💪 NEVER KILL YOURSELF FR FR

fuck I've needed to pee for like two hours but I haven't been able to tear away from first the pitt and then pittblr like whatever okay neurodivergent hyperfixation freak. I need to go fucking piss bruh. I could've paused that shit (I physically could not) (the only time I paused it was to cry over the motorcycle accident and robby's lie) (robby please don't die)

i feel like the worst thing about having a eating disorder is knowing i have fucked up my digestive system because im always in pain but bringing up eating disorder related gut issues to a doctor is always humiliating and stressful especially since I'm not currently interested in recovery or treatment

having diarrhea is probably the weirdest sensation

Woke up vomiting with other lovely stomach problems on top of having my period. Still not feeling good, he knows this and yet “I’m lazy” because I don’t want to do the dishes right now. 

Last night I threw a little fit to get a burrito bc I didn't want to keep restricting my food for my dumb ass stomach bug and ended up being repeatedly stomped in the guts by that very burrito. Moral: when my sweet and well meaning boyfriend is telling me I shouldn't eat a burrito on a stomach bug, I gotta sit my muddy ass down and listen

you people would not believe how bad i smell