I think I may be having a Ti-Si loop. I realized I’m more unhappy. Also meaning, I know I can be happier, healthier, more creative, higher in openness. I’m trying to reconnect to the part of me that’s looking outward with curiosity and noticing differences as something interesting rather than boring. I used to be like that.

You can't figure out how to disentangle your own emotions from others' (real and perceived) emotions

You keep looping over the 'proof' that you really are rejected and unwanted by those around you (ti conclusions of poorly remembered si events, skipping over better Ne possibilities)

The tears don't stop and it is entirely involuntary

You feel stuck in a whirlwind of several ill-defined emotions, unable to tell where one begins and another ends

You feel alone and uncharacteristically needy but self isolate because you can only talk about your feelings in the most childish and maudlin manner in this state