#threeoneg

How do you maintain the day-to-day tasks of basic human existence when the gore and terror of genocide livestreams across all our phones? How do you make a difference up against insurmountable opposition? Why try to change things when things never change? The evidence we’re given tells us to stay quiet, enjoy what you have, don’t make a stir because it won’t go well for you. If you decide to care about something (or if you’re unable not to) there’s a tendency to forget what’s still good in life, which leads to forgetting why you began to fight in the first place, and that will tax your spirit. I reminded myself that the world we had was the world Willy and Johnsy would be left with and that gave me courage to keep caring even on the worst days (and god they came and were many and felt as if they would never end).

When you find something to fight for you begin to notice what else is worth saving. To force yourself to remember the primary action, forces, or events that pushed you to do what you’re doing is often to find greater strength to do it. I knew most of what I tried meant nothing, affected nothing, but all of that was small next to the reality that Willy and Johnsy were worth the effort. Once you take stock of what’s worth fighting for, you see the beauty of life (or you’re reminded of it) and if you’re any good you know you have to keep working.