#thoughtful asks

Hmm.... that's a big question 🤔🤔 I really had to take some time to think about how I wanted to answer you.

I'm not sure if you're asking me about friendships or romantic interests so I will try to answer both.

I think just like most people I'm drawn to those that show a genuine interest in me as a person and wants to get to know me. To understand me. People that show me they genuinely enjoy my company. All my weirdness. I think a natural chemistry and banter is essential. And I want them to be transparent and open enough to allow me to enjoy them in the same way.

I like people that are capable of having deep conversations not just the surface level, every day, how are you... how's your day kind of thing. I like people that are funny and charming. Just genuinely kind and engaging people.

If it's someone that likes me a little more than a friend and wants to get to know me on a deeper level then they have to be flirty without being overtly sexual. And I don't take hints so they have to be confident enough to be open and vulnerable with me. They have to tell me exactly how they feel and exactly what they want. They have to make me feel like I'm a priority. I'm not just another random girl on the internet. Because that's exactly how I'm going to treat them.

They have to be open-minded and understanding. They have to be patient and support my mental health. Not contribute to the down fall of it. It's super important to me that a man knows how to be a gentleman until it's time not to be 😉 He has to have a strong moral compass but not self-righteous. And strong consistent communication skills are mandatory. I need reassurance and consistent behavior regularly. I'm an overthinker and my brain always goes to the worst place possible so I have to have people around me that can take care of me emotionally.

If you have a problem with anyone's nationality, race, gender, pronouns or sexuality you are not my type. That is an absolute deal breaker. We are not friends. We don't have to have the same religion and we don't have to have the same political beliefs. But if you support ICE or the abuse of women and children then we do not see eye to eye. I will not agree to disagree with someone that can support something so disgusting. It's not about politics anymore. It's about basic human rights.

I love your conceptualization of the vibes being reminiscent of the Secret Second Family. It also calls to mind an echo of Adam & Kate Milligan, doesn't it, even though it's not an exact one-to-one? It's uncomfortable. I like it.

Yes, Claire and Dean get along like hot jam on fire, and that's going to hurt, no matter how you slice it. Dean adores her.

And yes, you know, now that you mention it... Holy crap. Claire does have the life Jack wants. She's surrounded by a big family that loves her with built-in friends her own age that Get The Life. Absolutely, it would appear perfect to him, at least from the outside. I'm wholly accepting that little gem into my worldview.

And yes, it's a good observation that Jack doesn't respond all that well to that misplaced hostility. He can be very defensive.

And yes, I agree that this whole situation might be a step too far for Claire Powder-keg-Novak, even if she tries to swallow it down. I mean, she still sleeps with Grumpy Cat. In the 12x16 Ladies Drink Free script, Cas still emojis to her, sometimes, even two years out from their parting of ways.

She left them. Of course, she doesn't care. That's what she's going to tell herself, anyway.

CLAIRE: Who's Jack? ALEX/JODY (together): Lucifer's son. On Patience, silently reacting to that: Lucifer's son? What the fuck? On Claire-- a bit wounded to realize she knows so little about Sam and Dean these days.

13x10 Wayward Sisters, Writer's 2nd Draft

Sure! Thank you for asking! 

1: What inspires you?

So many things! Music, movies, people, art, history, it’s more a matter of what doesn’t. Anything that is produced by one’s passion. I am constantly in awe of life’s ability to persist, endure, and create. 

I know that kind of sounds cheesy and grandiose, but it’s honest. If we’re talking specifics, like for my artwork or research, I’m fascinated by the dark, gothic, and obscure. I find a lot of power in taking what’s been condemned as villainous, idle, and unwell, and learning how people have used those figures to find belonging. 

4: What’s your favorite part of the day?

Nowadays? The morning and midday. First thing I do when I wake up is stretch, make my bed, and then I either go for my trail run or do my at-home workout. Afterward I settle in with breakfast and whatever I want to watch for a couple of hours. I love when I get a good, early start -- it makes the day feel longer, and full of opportunity. 

30: What makes you happy?

Time with loved ones is up there, for sure. I love spending quality time with those who I consider to be my people. Then, also high on the list would be time alone (whoops)! Before quarantine I would spend 2-3 days out of the week doing all I had to do on campus, and then I would slink away to my favorite coffee shop downtown and do work by myself until nightfall. That to me is my perfect balance of interaction and seclusion. 

Animals (especially horses, cats, and dogs). I grew up with them around and I don’t think I could picture a contented life for myself without them. 

Art and media, especially the queer sort (shocker, there, right?).

And...pasta. Definitely pasta. 

3. What do you think will happen when you die?

Well, I'll go to Heaven. My body will stay here on earth, rotting and stuff, and on the last day it will be raised up and transformed into a new body — a better body. Although I'm not entirely sure what I'll be doing in Heaven until then. I'll be with Jesus, but the party can't start until after the resurrection and all the other guests have arrived.