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👽 Sun conjunct Neptune has a hard time at some point defining who they are in their daily and social environments. They mould themselves quite a bit to the things that they fantasize, dream of, feel and subconscious experiences. It usually makes someone a people pleaser, other times it shows that not many people who aren't matching or as spiritually conscious simply can't see you or perceive through their own projections. Having this conjunct mercury can create a people pleaser liar lol, not everyone but I digress.

👽 Saturn is a key but your mercury is the key of how to control, stabilize and grow you intellect. Its your mind and also your thought process that lead you to take action.

👽 I don't know why everyone doesn't understand that your Nodes show the direction your meant to head but you point rulers (MC,DC,IC,AC) tell you how to direct that life purpose in shown by the north node. Of course take all things including house and placement of both into consideration.

👽Jupiter Retrograde shows someone who is more worldly and logical than spiritually based. Not that spirituality doesn’t apply or have importance but it’s a lesson here that has to be learned through expansion and eye opening experiences. Even bring too spiritual or using ideology/spirituality to explain the world or hate. The reflection of the spiritual world shows up less in flow here. It’s more of a river stream that you learn to meditate by to understand.

👽 2nd house placements do serve themselves well when they focus on stability but when stability becomes your only sense of foundation or self esteem (2nd house), I notice they suffer an almost isolated sense of superiority. I without true growth you'll be surrounded by success and jewels but empty.

👽 Your moon is where your "womb" lies in the chart. The moon is your creative hub for sure but the state of your moon in a chart can make or break your ability to grow as a person. A moon that is afflicted by other planets without remedy creates stagnancy and blockages.

👽If you want to change your appearance, follow your Venus ruler to see how to expand your style and attraction. Venus is a reflection of the goddess Aphrodite in many ways. It can also show how your beauty will affect others.

Example: Venus in scorpio with Pluto in sag - Express your beauty through highlighting your legs, could be dresses and try bold red, orange and dark toned colors. A play on elegance and sexual expression can play up attraction here. Think of a nice satin silk fitted red dress paired with an open collar bone and back combo. Show skin but cover yourself down to the feet. Yes I just styled you - your welcome.

👽 Libra Moons are really good at networking and reading peoples wants and needs, while Virgo moons are good at reading peoples and observing their next move.

👽Take the asteroid that reflects your career if applicable and compare it with your MC persona chart and your natal as well. your bound to see a fated correlation if your meant to be drawn in that direction.

One of my clients wants to be a singer and work in the music industry. Their MC persona chart, MC person a chart, Fama persona chart and the name asteroid to her artist name - all have the same North node, Saturn and Angles. Each ruler also is at a fame degree 😂 Can't make this shit up.

👽If your truly gonna make it in the music industry as a prominent figure your chart will show 3 things. Creative drive/transmutation - either your are creative or you thrive in a creative environment, Your lucky and your path brings gifts or nudges towards the music industry, An audience/ recognition in some way - we all want to be seen but this is about the business and with creative and production comes consumption. Research those things and it will lead you to your journey to success and what that really means for you.

👽What to heal + How to grow = Chiron & Saturn

👽Clients always get surprised by how much I can tell them with thei chart. Ancestry is one of the most interesting parts they figure out about astrology. You get karma and generation inheritance from your lineage in astrology. I can see the mother and father wound usually right away with the Sun and Moon.

👽Mony asteroid shows ways your money comes to you and leave you. That asteroids conjuncts through transit open opportunity for material manifestation.

👽8th housers unity = always being taken care of or gifted something in some way from someone.

👽Manifest through Venus - Saturn. Use venus as the attractor and saturn as the foundation.

Venus in scorpio with Saturn in Gemini - Find multiple ways to make money, establish business, Find sponsors and Use beauty to attract customers, Let your aesthetic be a selling point, Network with high class people and customers, Flirt and charm.

👽Venus trine Uranus has a particular gift of liking or participating an quirky hobby. One they like to share with their community. Sometime this is a habit or a more kinkier form of expression. Can be a self serving aspect. Can also be interested in a certain type of person - bad boys, nerds or hyper masculine people.

*interesting manifestation of likes ANIME, BDSM, DARK HUMOR, COSPLAY, Etc.

👽Saturn in water signs especially pisces can be prone to depression and bouts of emotional stagnancy. Its important to refresh and tend to one mental state more closely. I would always recommend these people to have regular spiritual meditation and purging/reset baths. Shadow work is essential.

👽Saturn in Aries can be incredibly selfish because their ways are way to stubborn and drilling. When they feel trapped or challenged they tend to try and reestablish their authority or "boundaries". I notice these Saturns act with a lot of ego in the face of conflict. Almost like I'm correct why are you so wrong type of people.

👽Pisces Mars....One to many times have I learned how passive aggressive these mars can get. Especially when they bottle up the truth of how they feel waiting for you to reveal your emotions leaving a mess and chaos. Always randomly outbursting because you never say what needs to be said in the beginning...not all the time but 👀.

👽9th house placements most of the time are meant to be restricted or oppressed a bit by their upbringing and environment in order to really teach them what values and beliefs they truly have within themselves. This could be as simple as experiencing bullying that awakens your true potential in a skill or talent. Even conformity from people who don't understand or agree with your beliefs and expansion, which ultimately causes isolation that can lead to radical self-acceptance.

👽 Your parents and family can be your downfall. One to many clients with 4th house, cancer and Saturn placements that afflict their Sun, Moon, Rising - this is a key indicator of inherited generational trauma. While this can manifest in the chart in many ways. I notice these placements have emotional wounds from childhood rooted in ancestors/family members.

to explain: angels are 'it' unless they are high ranked, to which they are then 'he/him'. Gabriel, created to be the Will of God, would have been born into a high rank. From the day he was born, he would have known that a) he loved God b) he represented His will and c) he was a man because of this honour bestowed upon him. It's something baked into the very foundation of an angel's identity: you are high-ranked, so you are he/him, no matter what.

(and this does bring up the other interesting thought of, so when humans become angels (and they do as the Virtue terminal entry states), does that mean human women have to surrender their pronouns or what when they become angels? Are they exempted from the it/he rules? Or does Heaven steal their she/her pronouns and they just have to deal with it? A separate post to muse upon I guess)

Gabriel would have no frame of reference to think otherwise either. Like, in human society you're exposed to the fact that, yeah, there are other genders, I have opportunities to explore those other genders, I can try it out, etc... but Gabriel would never have that. He is Gabriel, the Will of God, he/him. Like. That's it. That's how it's been since he was born thousands of years ago and what Father intended for him. So this is what he is. Only time that would ever change was when, y'know, V1 kicked his ass and the Council pulled their bullshit (and stole his he/him pronouns), but that was reducing Gabriel to 'it'.

And I was thinking like, man, it'd be wild that it would never ever cross Gabriel's mind to ever consider female pronouns because it has been hammered so deep into his bone marrow that he is a man, until he fucks up and then he doesn't even have that, he is just 'it', a genderless entity that must toil to regain the privilege of being a man again. Like he'd have to untangle himself entirely from Heaven and probably go on a several years sabbatical stabbing pins into a V1 plushie or standing on a beach staring into the ocean to realise that, hey, maybe his options aren't just it/him? If he always felt like a square peg in a round hole, maybe he can try something different? He's already killed the Council so why not throw aside millennia of certainty and try out she/her for a bit?

All that rambling to say that while i am very partial to trans man Gabriel, there is just something very interesting about a Gabriel whose sense of self has been cast in iron from the moment he was born, right down to his gender, and the conflict over that comes from him actually realising that there is an option and doing some soul searching despite it feeling like blasphemy, as God told him who he was and now Gabriel is doubting even that.

Angels don't really have the freedom of self like humans do, so Gabriel's conflict with who he is comes from an entirely different direction as it would with a human. It is more that him denying he is a man would mean denying God's view of him, and the complicated situation where as a representative of God's Will, Gabriel would also feel compelled to be "masculine" to match "Father". It'd just be very difficult for him to overcome that, I feel.

I ship Gelphie. So what the hell ? Oh, and Fiyeraba (who, yes, I admit I prefer without any problem) isn't a heterosexual ship. It's a ship with bisexual characters (or pan for Fiyero).

A man and a woman in a relationship is not necessarily a heterosexual couple.

I don't hate Chaggie, I just find the relationship generally poorly written, which is simply the factual truth. And even Charlastor / Radiobelle isn't a heterosexual ship ! Charlie is bisexual and Alastor is asexual. Both characters are part of the queer community.

Rhaenicent is a complete joke. It's poorly written and romanticizes a toxic and deeply problematic relationship to an absurd degree. It's also a form of misplaced queerbaiting. Daemyra in the show are also a bisexual characters. They aren't heterosexual like in the book. And even preferring book Daemyra to a sapphic ship, whether it's Rhaenicent or for the book Laenyra (a relationship of which there is no romantic and sexual evidence, except for the misplaced suspicions of maesters pro greens and against Rhaenyra and the Blacks team), I don't see what the problem is. I simply prefer the established canonical romance, which I find very well-written. I don't see why I should necessarily prefer the sapphic ship.

Lokius is purely fanfiction ; I don't see the harm in preferring the canonical romance, especially between, again, two damn bisexual characters, Sylvie & Loki (Sylki). And besides, they're characters who can take on any appearance they want ! So they are literally potentially gender fluid ?

It's crazy how much you're erasing bisexual characters and relationships. At this point, I might even accuse you of biphobia.

Also, I don't like TLOK, which means I don't particularly like any of the romances in it. None of them are well done, not just Korrasami.

I won't even mention Byler here. That ship is purely fanon, and the extreme fans of that ship are unbearable. And yes, I prefer Mileven. And no, I know what you're thinking, Mileven isn't a couple that fits social norms just because they're heterosexual. They're literally people rejected and harassed for their differences. A form of outcast. And again, There is nothing wrong with preferring the canonical couple to the fanon couple, under the pretext that it is a heterosexual ship.

The same goes for Wenclair, a fanon ship with no real foundation and unbearable fans. And I say this even though I used to like Wenclair (as a pure fanon ship, despite my preference for Wyler), but the fandom is just too unbearable. And Wyler, once again, while heterosexual (although Wednesday could fall into a particular spectrum of sexuality depending on the interpretation), is a relationship between two outcasts, clearly outside the norm.

Mileven and Wyler aren't really ships that fit into social norms.

And I don't hate Swanqueen. I can even see perfectly well what people like about it. I just don't feel it. And yes, Emma & Killian (CaptainSwan) are both heterosexual. So what ? Is it a crime to again prefer the canon romance to the fanon one ? I even recommended Agatha & Rio (Agathario) for those who liked Swanqueen. Because I love that ship.

By the way, here's a playlist of all the queer ships I like (even fanon) :

We need to put an end to this myth that not liking one or more LGBTQ+ couples makes you a homophobe. I don't accept just anything. I don't have different opinions about heterosexual couples, and I won't have any different opinions about LGBTQ+ couples either.

Donnie still stalked April at the start of season 2 and Casey has harassed April both physically and verbally.

Yet for some reason I rarely see that same level of hatred aimed at those two compared to April (in the love triangle situation) it speak a lot towards the underlying misogyny in the fandom that the victim of harassment is more hated than the two aggressors. And again the situation is poorly written but not as bad as people make it out to be and it's perfectly valid to dislike any of these characters behavior. However I will always find strange if someone hate April so much but love Donnie and Casey I say what I think.

Romance is really bad in the tmnt series tbh

I agree with you !

As someone (In middle school at the time-) who used to unfairly blame April for a majority of the love triangle + romantic situation with Donnie, I can 100% confirm that this bias is true for a lot of fans- Which really does highlight a lot of the misogyny within this franchise / fan base as a whole.

While I do have my own issues with 2012 April as a character (Both because of the poor writing and outside of that, because let's be real, I don't think it's "completely unrealistic" for girls with personalities like 2012 April's to exist-), the love triangle has become some such a small agitation rather than the foundation of my disgruntlement with her character as a whole- I think people who cite the poorly executed love triangle trope as their biggest piece of evidence for why "2012 April sucks" either need to broaden their perspectives on the roles they each played in that situation and nuances of women / girls navigating romantic scenarios with men / boys (Like I did-!) or might honestly just be misogynistic-? Or even internalized misogyny they aren't addressing in some way-

Like you mentioned, April isn't completely off the hook since she did have moments of expressing interest in both boys that couldn't have been misinterpreted as anything other than that (Some examples more than others-). But I find the lack of grilling towards Donnie (And Casey, but I'll get to him in a second-) in this way to be kind of jarring in its own right. That's honestly why I enjoy drawing April calling him out in my art these days, because he genuinely was a nuisance of a guy, dude. Lmao || Similarly to how I wholeheartedly believe Donnie's writing towards April was overseen by an incel of some form, I think there are a lot of people who can subconsciously relate to Donnie over her unrequited (At least, it should've been imo-) pinning of April in the show- Hence, the unwavering defense of his actions from many fans of various genders. But I also find the defense of his actions within the series linked to a lack of maturity over romantic situations and overall relationships with other people, just like how I mentioned I was pretty young when I held that same viewpoint. Not that that's an excuse of any kind, simply an explanation I personally find reasonable-! Feeling unwanted, undesirable, a "freak", etc. "How could April be so cruel? He's been trapped in the sewers for 15 years, he doesn't know how to talk to girls / regulate romantic feelings!" Yet, his siblings in the series seem to be doing just fine in similar scenarios (Minus Leo, his doesn't count to me. 🤢 Lmao). For the amount of time he'd been exposed to April, combined with the amount of times his own family attempted to call his behavior, one would think he'd get the message mid Season 2 at the very least.

Granted, this is where the water gets murky, since the series does have April kiss Donnie in Season 3 just as he's finally understanding the role he's played in April's life thus far (Which, again, a grown ass woman romantically harassing a teenage boy is not the same thing- 💀). This is kind of why I personally find April and Donnie to harbor a majority of the "blame" or whatever you'd like to refer to it as for the love triangle situation, you know? Yes, Donnie was oppressive with his affections towards April. Nothing the show presents to us gives me the impression or idea that Donnie is infatuated with April for any other reason than her being "a pretty girl", and he barely makes an effort to know who April O'Neil even is outside of things merely connected to her (i.e. How he thinks April will like him "so much" just because her Father's a scientist- Which the show later clarifies that he's a psychologist as opposed to a scientist in the way we see with Donnie's character, but I digress-). He denies her autonomy, such as not respecting April's boundaries when she asks the Turtles to stay out of her life post her Father's accidental mutation (Something the show has April APOLOGIZE TO DONNIE FOR- Like?? Which, it's funny how upsetting that is for me, because I did find her abrupt distancing in S2 honestly really dumb? but still.) or how Donnie openly acknowledges April's feelings towards Casey in Season 3 ("Within The Woods") yet ignores the fact that she can make her own decisions on who she's interested / spends her time with. But it's also true that April encourages this dynamic to some extent. Donnie's the only member of the brothers she gives cheek kisses too, she openly gives Donnie physical affection or seeks out his physical presence when she's emotionally upset knowing his feelings towards her (I'm sorry, but you can't tell me she's oblivious in Season 1 either. She heard the things he was babbling about through Metalhead in the episode, "Metalhead"- 💀). The only complaint she's made about physical closeness with Donnie and Casey is when they do it simultaneously (The "group hug" comments she makes in Seasons 2 and 4-), and when she has a lack of control with it. Which part of me understands, your physical contact with other people should be on your own terms ! But in certain ways, it comes off as though their relationship progression only happens on April's terms-? Like April's feelings are the only ones that truly really matter in both of these relationship dynamics (Or in a less romantic sense, it comes off like someone only acknowledging you're friends with them when they "feel like it" or it's convenient for them-).

She also kissed Donnie on the lips in Season 3 (While ignoring the hell out of him the following episode-), and the show continues to give this uncertain standing on where April is at with Donnie into Season 4 (Like their moment together in the Space Market or when April gave Donnie yet another cheek kiss after recovering from his alien bee sting in the Dregg episode-).

They're both very toxic to me canonically, and not in a way I find enjoyable or as a good character study (Let me have my toxic Jonatello bias- 🗣️💜🖤 LMAO /j). As far as my favorite boy in the whole show Casey Jones is concerned, I'm also super biased. On one hand, I'm not going to debate or invalidate someone's criticisms of Casey and his actions towards April in this entire "love triangle". He unarguably did some dumb shit, like the graffiti he made of himself and April in the Season 2 finale for example (What was that, bro? 💀). But a big reason why it's difficult for me to criticize Casey and his behavior towards April personally is based on the writer's (imo) intentional hatred of him- LMAO / Similar to 2012 Mikey in this series, he's frequently disenfranchised by the writers and their choices to portray in a specific way. Continuing with the Mikey comparison, there were many opportunities Mikey had to be given a more serious focus and yet the writers refused to do so because it would conflict with the perception of Mikey they wanted the audience to have of him + his character. He's the "loveable goofball / comic relief", so he isn't allowed to be respected by his teammates regardless of whether or not it's deserved (Pretty much even centric Mikey episode we get in 2012-) nor is he allowed to have any meaningful commentary about the world around him (My favorite example of this is in S2 ! When Mikey gives a very thought provoking speech to his brothers about their sister Karai and how they're challenging everything she's grown up to believe is truth, so they need to give her the proper space to process everything she's been through- But apparently "no one understood him" because he had his mouth full of pizza gyoza. 💀). I have a lot of reason to believe they took the same approach with Casey, and while I'm always in the mood to get into that on a much broader spectrum I'll keep this post centered around the love triangle thing-! Lmao

Not everything of course, because like I said earlier I wouldn't fight someone on their perspective of Casey in the love triangle, but I do feel a lot of his distasteful actions with April stem from the writers wanting us as the audience to dislike him. For us to truly feel as though Donnie was the "better choice" for April, because look at how "crude and insensitive and Neanderthal-esque" Casey is compared to Donnie who's "a sensitive hopeless romantic, looking for a human girl to give a mutant a chance at love- 🥺". You see what I mean? It's also laughable to me, because like I've mentioned in previous posts, I think Casey and April have much more organic chemistry together than Donnie and April get to have together. We don't get anything close to that type of relationship with them until damn near the end of S4 + S5 (Which is atrocious to me personally and I don't really consider a lot of that Season canon-?? That's my personal beef though, so take it with a grain of salt-! Lmao), and that's so late into the series.

This feels like a strange comparison, but it kind of reminds of that, "Fred" series? How Fred was super infatuated with the girl next door Judy (This is already starting to sound familiar- Lmao), but uh oh ! Kevin is such a jerk and always ruining his chances to talk to Judy ! If only Judy would see how funny and charming and sweet he was- Then she'd stop hanging out with Kevin, who's a total jerk ! ...Like, come on- This is why I can't take the defamation of Casey's character in the love triangle seriously. 💀 (Granted, Kevin was a bully character or something, but it was obvious that that was the intention from the beginning- You know what I mean? He's the guy girls "shouldn't pick but do anyway", even though the guy we're supposedly meant to "root for" isn't a great choice for the girl in question either. Yet, they writers want you to defend them as if they are- Lmao)

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This analysis is based on the archived reading titled: "A Soothing Heart Healing (Channeled) Message"

We often approach healing with a specific goal in mind: we want the pain to cease. And we're often willing to do whatever it takes to make it stop, but we sabotage ourselves - and the healing process - because we want it to be a quick fix.

On this collective pattern analysis I'm going to break down why the healing process we need rarely looks like the healing process we want.

The screenshot are the piles from the archived reading; If you read that one, you can pick the same pile for an in-depth breakdown.

The desire for a quick fix is a natural human reaction to feeling pain. There's varying ways this can manifest, but it usually shows up in two ways: we either want a version of peace that looks like a return to the familiar, or a rapid shift that leads us to a better place.

The truth is we're constantly trying to escape challenging situations, because these trigger difficult emotions we don't feel ready, or capable, to deal with (yet). We then get stuck in loops of reliving the pain and running away from it.

From a systemic perspective, this push and pull pattern is actually us delaying our psyche's attempt to reorganize itself. Like when we accidentally scratch a scab because it was itching too bad to resist.

The good news is:

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Alright-y!

So, I have over the years learned how to use reshade and to edit my pictures. I am really not a natural on these things, so this is very much to help others who are as aesthetically challenged as I am. I have to have certain "rules" to follow, because I can rarely just see if a picture will turn out well or not.

We all need to realize where I started. We're talking using FRAPS to take screenshots and then running holy colours batman! to get some sort of effect.

Now, I'm not one to buy fancy stuff and to pirate certain programs isn't really my thing either. So we mend and make do!

Also, I am by far very good at taking screenshots and edit, but I have learned things and hope that it might be useful for someone!

I HAVE OPINIONS OKAY.

I've spent the last few days thinking about ways one might rewrite the ending. I started off trying to keep things relatively close to the game's existing structure, so you wouldn't have too many new assets and an equivalent amount of writing as went into canon, but tbh I got carried away so maybe this is a ridiculous far-fetched idea after all.

oh he is coping so hard it makes him look stupid. i mean it's Obvious. I mean it is layers upon layers of coping and trying to convince himself there is no way he is in this situation. somehow the biggest thing he would be in denial about is the gay part, not even the car part. couldn't tell you if that's from how human he sees his partner or further cope in line with "is it really gay if he's not really a man, either?"

he likes women, obviously he's not gay. you can't like women and men. pssh. i mean maybe sometimes he stares at guys too long and gets a little hot at the collar, but that's just... admiration, right? envy? envious of Guys Bein' Doods? -- and nothing that happened between him and the guys in 'nam counted. that doesn't count. anything that's happened when he was drunk also doesn't count. and even STILL, you can't like women and cars and sports and be gay, right? nahhh. (<- bullshitting himself) and like... kitt is his buddy! that's his partner! they're obviously so close because they've gone through a lot together and almost died NUMEROUS times. and even besides all of THAT, everyone's... everyone's a little gay. there's no way they aren't. so what if kitt has him feeling certain kinds of ways on long drives or when he's in the motel by himself at night? clearly he just needs to find a girl to fool around with. duh. of Course. ... and yeah whatever kitt's a car people will think that's insane but kitt is also a person. he is so strongly a person, a unique sentient personality. is it so wrong for someone to love, or to want to love someone, even if they look strange to other people? is that a crime? ... anyway michael's slut activities increase x300 the entire time he's trying to convince himself he's not gay, which starts with him unable to have the one he wants most so he copes by having everyone else instead, which THEN also broadly overlaps with when he starts fooling around with his car. which he only convinces himself isn't really gay because arguably, kitt isn't a man or a woman. and surely he's just going through some kind of... Something, if he's feeling the things he does as often as he does towards who he does. clearly it's just stress pushed to the breaking point. michael getting those stupid fluttery feelings when kitt acts defensive and protective of him in the presence of girls or other cars doesn't mean anything. it doesn't. normal flattery and nothing more. (<- cope harder, gayboy)

and don't!! even get me started!! on his self worth issues!! even after he figures out and accepts his feelings, there's a whole other mess to untangle called "does michael deserve to have a life outside of the foundation". is he allowed to love kitt when he faces death every day and the risk of breaking his heart? is he allowed to love kitt when that might mean losing him one day to a field accident bonnie can't fix? too many people come after him and the people he loves for him to love ever again. is kitt a safe person for him since he's nearly indestructible and faces the same challenges he does? or is kitt the worst possible person for him to love when kitt faces death and peril nearly as much as michael does? will they be at this until they die, will FLAG ever allow them a normal retirement? does he even have a right to ask for one now that wilton has saved his life, a life he lives out every day in service to that man's dream, let alone after what happened with Stevie? is he a human man or is he an idea?