#this one is...

25 Days Of A Christmas Carol December 16: Scrooged (1988)

directed by Richard Donner, written by Mitch Glazer and Michael O’Donoghue, starring Bill Murray

this was an angst request and i was already writing this soo... @iovehemmings requested :

17 with fwb!luke who comes over unexpectedly

“I can’t sleep, can I stay here?”

Luke’s face scrunches up as he gets out of the Uber. He’d changed his mind 100 times on the way over, but apparently not the address for the Uber. 

He shouldn’t be here. He knows at least that much. 

But you’re warm, and you’ll invite him in, despite the fact that it’ll destroy you both. 

The path to the break up was an easy one, he was never home and you couldn’t handle it anymore. You told him as much and that might as well have been the decision right there.

I would just like to say that I love this show has much as Natasha loves Andrey in Prologue, and that it has in fact, changed my life. And I am not being dramatic. Not one bit.

This show. This show. This show, from the moment I first listened to it, I knew I was in for something. This show is the only show I have ever listened to that gave my chills the first time I listened to it. This show is the only show that made me instantly connect with the characters. This show is the only show I have ever listened to that I never spaced out listening to the first time, because it was so exciting that even during the slower songs, it was mesmerizing. this show is the first show that I cried real tears at the end of, not because I knew the song was sad and some part of me told me to cry. This show is the first show for me to have made “what the fuck” an emotion, and in a good way. I might not have got the plot the first time (funny stories about that), but the show sucked me in, and it has never let go.

I remember waiting eagerly for the Broadway album to come out. I remember hunting for the songs on YouTube the day it did, because no one had made a playlist, and being unable to finish my homework that day because I was so focused on the comet. I remember the excitement when I found out that there was a fandom for this show. I remember using Comet as a coping mechanism, using the songs to push away anxiety over finals by making jokes about Dust and Ashes over finals. And, I remember the Tony’s coming around, and joining a group chat with six amazing people who all loved Great Comet to talk about the Tony’s, and quickly becoming amazing friends with them. 

I remember crying when I watched as one, by one, by one, the awards that the show deserved were stripped away. 

Enough about the Tony’s. I was pissed, yes; we all were. But we slowly moved on, and... things got better. 

This show... I have been introduced to some amazing people through it. People I’m even closer to than I am to some of my friends in real life, all because we love this show. We have so many inside jokes, and, except in times like this, we always are able to help each other get better. It’s... incredible, really, how close I am to these people, how much we really care about each other. It’s because of this show I’ve met some people who I needed to, frankly, and it’s not anything super dramatic, really, why I had to. I just needed them, even if it can get a little annoying sometimes. (Lily.)

Thanks to this show, I’m more confident. I feel better about myself. The show hasn’t gotten rid of my anxiety, but, strangely enough, it’s seriously helped. I connected with every single one of these characters so quickly, latched onto something in each of them that I could try and include in myself. And, it worked. It was incredibly effective in helping me become more comfortable and stronger. Emulating these characters, and acting out the show, have given me more faith in my abilities as a human being. On top of that, I was given a coping mechanism for whhe anxiety took over. Given my connection to these characters, I could easily slide into character and try and push my own thoughts away by replacing it with their’s. And this truly helped with a lot of things. I got into a select group by singing Charming and channeling Hélène’s personality to get over a panic attack (thanks to little children screaming a lot). I don’t think I would have had I never listened to this show.

I loved seeing the fandom grow after the Tony’s. I remember watching the view count tick up on Prologue, the joy in seeing the views quadruple a week later thanks to people wanting to find out about what that performance had been. Reading reviews and wishing I could have seen it. Getting jealous at stage door photos. And making this tumblr (at first to follow some of my favorite ask blogs [I remember being like “this fandom has these? too?”]) and joining a group of the most creative people I’ve ever met. I live for this fandom and pray to whatever is out there that we as a whole will not stop making things just because the show is no longer on Broadway.

I... I have so much I want to say. I’m livid, I’m frustrated, I’m melancholy... I might very well be broken after this, who knows? But that isn’t for this little essay. Perhaps another time, when I am not so crushed. OR in the next five minutes, whichever I decide.

The Comet changed my life. The Comet changed hundreds of lives, I’m sure. 

I love this show, the actors, creative, technicians.

and I want to say thank you. Without anyone, there would be no Great Comet. 

“I’m happy to hear it.” The priest smiled, running a gloved hand over the enormous trunk.

The leaves, high above, dispersed the summer sunlight. Her bare feet crossed the grass, accompanying the soft thumping of the priest’s boots.

“Take your time praying. And, congratulations on finishing your pilgrima–”

She gripped his wrist, sliding the glove out. “Awfully overdressed, no?”

“What are...?!”

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