Insane and Loving it

Unlikely, he realized, but not impossible.

Because one evening, Captain Kirk called him into his quarters. It was not the first time it had happened – sometimes there were emergencies, mostly the threat of mutiny, that had to be dealt with quickly – and so he made his way there as quickly as possible –

But he did not find what he expected to find.

Instead, the captain was sitting in his room in the dark, having a drink.

“Ah, Spock” he said simply. “Get undressed and come to bed.”

He could have refused, and even if he had insisted, he could easily have taken him in hand-to-hand combat. They both knew it.

He did as he was told anyway.

And from that moment on, it happened again and again. But, thankfully, since the crew was used to the captain speaking to him privately at all times of the day, no one seemed to have realized –

Really, nothing changed. Even if he found it necessary to turn a blind eye, as the humans said, to the women who still visited the captain’s quarters occasionally. It shouldn’t have been… but it was.

Now and then, he wondered why – there was no logical explanation that he could see – everyone knew that such an arrangement as theirs did not prevent betrayal or mutiny, and certainly, Captain Kirk would not believe that it was any different with him because he was a Vulcan, quite the contrary.

The only explanation was that the captain had wanted and continued to want him.

It might not have sounded very logical, but then, his own desires were not, either.

And so it might have gone on until things reached their inevitable conclusion. For all that he liked to consider every possibility, it was more than likely that Captain Kirk would have grown tired of him, or found someone more interesting, or just decided that he was bored one day – humans were rather unpredictable in certain regards – and he, of course, was not prone to sentimentality. If things – then that would be that, and he would continue to serve –

Only that one day, he learned that there were other universes out there – it had not been that impossible that there were, but he had never done much research when it came to the topic, an oversight –

And he met a captain that was very different from –

He looked at this James T. Kirk – the James T. Kirk of another universe, one who wished to make the world a better place, one who cared – that was it, that was the biggest difference between them, this strange James T. Kirk cared for others – and for just a moment, a moment of utter weakness that he would never admit to, he wondered what it would be like to serve under him – to be Commander Spock on an Enterprise that was completing a mission of peaceful exploration – and if, maybe, under these circumstances –

This was weakness, of course, nothing but weakness, and he quickly shook off the thought.

But not only did he happen to be a good man, maybe the only one Spock had ever met in his lifetime, but he was also right in what he said – right and logical – and as he walked back to his quarters after all was said and done, he dwelled on the possibility – it would take some time to come up with a plan. Captain Kirk was far from deficient – really quite as intelligent as his counterpart, just more brutal – but he would most definitely notice if he were to –

Yes, this would have to continue yet, he thought when he got the message that the captain expected him in his quarters. And – if he had been human, he would have called himself relieved that it was so.

Because he was cruel, and he was scrupulous, and above all, he was illogical.