#thinkingtyper

He’s a lone man

Despite his anger

He’s a lone man inside

People think he’s a high-tempered man

His children hate him

His wife found no love for any longer

Nobody love him

Even himself

He’s a lone man

When yes is no When no is yes

When true is false When false is true

When man become woman When woman become man

When black is white When white is black

When good is bad When bad is good

When you fed by lies When you don’t know which is the truth

We are not defined by things But we defined things

We raised by technology And when we grow up, we dream to develop it And it’ll raised the next generation

We dream to make a better future But sometimes we relized that our existence is the sign of destruction

We don’t know the past We don’t even know what the future will be

We are The Son of Today And we live for Tomorrow

×××ThinkingTyper×××

Today i had a chit-chat with my friends. One boy, one girl.

I was going to read on a bench in front of my class--since the place is quite, so i chose that spot. Not long after, there are two friends who also got out from class. I cancelled my reading session because one of them ask me something.

At the beginning, it was a small talk, with light topic, laughter, all the words that came up on our head, we just say it. Until i say something that it may be related to something they don’t like.

They respond my saying with a negative responses, much of negative responses. From one negative thing, to another, and they began completing each other’s words, while i’m listening to them.

The vibe still fulled with cheers for them, because they always add laughter after their negative sayings, especially when one of them agree with one another’s opinion. Meanwhile the vibe was really uncomforting and full of hatred for me. So i remain quite, not knowing what to say, either to support their opinions. It was a relieved when the school bell rang and they go to home.

I’m still thinking about our chat until now. How can a person hate ‘something’ so much? I mean, you can feel that you don’t like something, but is it neccessary to put so much hate-talk, hate-opinions, hate-sayings to something you don’t like? Because perhaps what you hate from others/something is actually something you really want to have but it’s difficult for you to have that. Or even, that something you hate is actually a part of yourself that you don’t even know that it existed in a deep part of yourself.

I’ll tell you a glimpse of our chat.

I really remember how my friend say that he doesn’t like most of our local YouTuber, he said that local YouTuber does not have creative contents, does not have good contents, and other negative comments. He said that he prefer overseas YouTuber that can “open his mind”.

“Orang bule mending, ngeliat dia main game aja kayaknya seru gitu. Kalo orang Indo mah...”

“Orang bule mending, konten ga terlalu bagus tapi ada muka yang bisa bikin orang tertarik. Lah orang Indo, konten gak menarik, muka juga gak menarik, apa yang mau dijual?”

I also remember how my friend say that one of our public figure’s daughter use her parent’s money to get to Oxford University. I said (since she is quite active in YouTube), “I don’t know. Perhaps she also get money from her YouTube video.” And my friend, she responds (with underestimating tone), “How much does she get from YouTube? That must be cheap.” So i said, “But she got silver play button.” And still with underestimating tone she responds, “What? Only silver? An U.S YouTuber can get that for granted. It’s nothing.” Because i also quite active on YouTube, i said, “Still, it’s hard to get even a hundred subscribers.” And she began hate-talking while i don’t know what to say anymore.

“Yaelah berapa sih yang didapet dari YouTube?”

“Cuma Silver Play Button mah orang bule baru jadi YouTuber juga bisa langsung dapet kali.”

I just want to say guys, if you really want to “open your mind”, then try to accept everything and try to appreciate it. You never know what it’ll become because you’re not the doer.

JUST STOP HATE COMMENTS, IT IRRITATES MY EAR!

THE GIRL WHO LIVED BEHIND THE BLUE DOOR

she is not strong yet she acted to bear the sadness

she is shy yet she tried to cheer the world with her laugh

she is flat-faced because she hides her emotions