“I don’t want to pry, but.. I want you to know I also want to listen, if you want someone to talk to.” From Damien.
jiwon has tried talking. to therapists, to colleagues, to the few friends he hasn't lost yet. and each time, he comes away feeling worse. talking never seems to help, even though jiwon knows it should. there's just something fundamentally wrong about him that he can't quite pinpoint.
he doesn't say anything for a while, caught up in the whirlwind of what if's, and's, and but's in his head. the silence drags on for far too long, but damien keeps his word. he doesn't pry, but he is.. here. like every other living creature on the face of the planet, damien has his faults, but integrity is not one of them. jiwon doesn't think they're close enough to be considered friends, but traveling together for months on tour inevitably brings people closer. even if jiwon mostly keeps to himself in the background. they may not exactly be friends, but jiwon thinks he knows damien well enough to believe in the offer.
sat cross-legged on the floor, jiwon idly picks at the kinesiotape wrapped around his ankle. piecing together what to say has become so much harder after the accident. finally, after what feels like aeons, jiwon's voice comes like mist in the early morning.
"i thought this would help, all the traveling. i don't normally sleep a lot, so i figured this would at least keep me busy. but i guess it's not working. it's not getting worse, but.." he pauses, pinching his lower lip momentarily between teeth. "i just wish it was getting better, you know?"
noticing trauma starters: ACCEPTING!