They removed your tailbone????????????????
It was winter. It was seventh grade. I was walking back inside on the sidewalk. The sidewalk had not been salted properly. I slipped on a huge patch of ice and instantly felt pain right where your tailbone exists. It hurt like a bitch but I had just taken a hard fall onto concrete so like of course it hurt. It went away after a while so I figured it was fine.
Until it came time to travel to my grandparents house several states away and I was in TEARS by the end of the road trip. My butt hurt SO BAD, way more than the usual aches and pains of road tripping. And then the pain didnāt go away.
At first my mother did not believe me which Rude but eventually I went to my doctor, and she ordered an X-ray and she couldnāt really tell what was wrong so she ordered an MRI and both those things led to her noticing that I have three degenerated disks in my lower spine (honestly probably the cause of most of my problems) and it looked like my tailbone was āanti-vertedā which I will forever believe is just a fancy doctor term for āidk man it looks weirdā
I get sent to a specialist. The specialist has ZERO bedside manner and tells me, a scared very mentally unwell thirteen year old that my only options are to have a surgery wouldnāt really fix the problem or take Advil for the rest of my life. That sucked. My mom took me to Spirit Halloween to cheer me up because it was so bad.
By this point, Iām in pain all the time. I get a special pillow to sit on both in the car and at school, and it is put in my IEP that I have special permission to stand up in class whenever necessary because the pain was just that distracting. To help mitigate the pain, I am seeing a chiropractor on a very regular basis. Itās awkward as hell because Iām experiencing puberty and heās constantly touching my lower back and butt.
Blah blah blah I make it to eighth grade and I am having A Bad Time. Iām in so much pain that I think itās the only thing Iām going to feel for the rest of my life. I am being heavily bullied at church on top of getting injected with a crap ton of religious trauma. At the same time Iām going through a sexuality crisis because middle school. I am scrounging for reasons to get out of bed and itās only working sometimes. Itās BAD.
Somewhere along the line my chiropractor takes a look at my X-ray and he goes: āThis is broken. This is very broken. Your tailbone is broken.ā
I look at the X-ray. Instead of being attached to my spine, my tailbone is completely detached from bone, muscle, tissue, and is existing at a 90 degree angle in my body cavity. No fucking wonder it hurt so much!!
On it goes. We know what the problem is but we donāt know how to fix it and this point I have a very healthy mistrust of doctors.
Enter my eighth grade social studies teacher. Her husband has been the gym teacher at the elementary school where my dad works since idk the beginning of time probably. And also, small town, so they both me well.
She hears whatās going on. She sees me struggling to exist on the daily. She pulls me to the side after class one day and says āHey. My son broke his tailbone a couple years ago. We went to this doctor and the surgery they did really helped.ā
Cue social studies teacher getting in contact with my parents and me having approximately a million appointments at a doctorās office in *gasp* the great city of El Paso, Texas. The doctor decides that itās best to remove the bone because it just floating around is causing A Lot of nerve damage.
So, July 7th, 2016 I got my tailbone removed from my body in a procedure called a coccygectomy. I had to figure out how to do things while either completely laying down or standing up for two weeks because I couldnāt sit. I walked around with a Franken-butt for a few weeks until the stitches dissolved. I still have nerve damage and I will probably never be able to sit normally or without pain again but it is so much better then it used to be.
And now that social studies teacher is my principal and I have a cool scar that I canāt ever show to anyone because well. The location of the tailbone is. You know.