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Day 8: How can I call support for this journey; The four of Cups. 🌙 Day 9: Where am I being invited to let go of a need for control; The two of Cups 🌙 #tarotfortheunderworld 🌙 The more quiet and contemplative I get in my middle age, the more comfortable I’ve been to reach out and ask for help or advice. And I like it. I wish I wouldn’t have been so full of bravado in my youth. I feel like I missed out on some great opportunities over misplaced hubris. I’m grateful every moment is a new chance to begin again. 🌙 I’m surprised I drew this card here. I outgrew trying to control anything in any of my relationships a long time ago {again, hooray for leveling up on emotional maturity!!} So, I’ll contemplate what the 2 of Cups is showing me here during evening meditation. Pondering it the past hour or so has gotten me nowhere 😂 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #thefourofcups #thetwoofcups #tarot #tarotchallenge #tarotcards #energy #energyexchange #divination #uusi #paganotherworldstarot #newgrowth #balance #intuitiveguidance #selfcare #selflove #witchesofinstagram #witch #instawitch #witchery #meditation #wildsoulhealing #thefigandthewasp https://www.instagram.com/p/B3azOPdpwqe/?igshid=ymaitxqv4v67

And then #cinderella lived #happilyeverafter. 🌊⭐️🌊Always loved you #darylhannah @dhlovelife🌊🧜🏻‍♀️🌊 and I think this pic exemplifies the meaning of #thefourofcups which is #todaystarot 🌊⭐️🌊 When the Four of Cups turns up in a Tarot reading, new invitations and opportunities are flowing to you, but for now, you’re saying “no” and turning them away. Perhaps the prospects do not interest you, or your cup is full, or you already have too much on your plate. Use your discernment to decide on what is truly important to you, and don't be afraid to decline new projects that don't align with your future path. #damedarcy #damedarcymermaidtarot #damedarcymermaidtarotgoldedition #nautical #motherhood #fairytales #fashionshoot #witchesofinstagram #fortunetelling #tarotdecks #mermaidlife @damedarcy https://www.instagram.com/p/B2oSV-4l7mK/?igshid=1rqmyk1kogi62

And then #cinderella lived #happilyeverafter. 🌊⭐️🌊Always loved you #darylhannah @dhlovelife🌊🧜🏻‍♀️🌊 and I think this pic exemplifies the meaning of #thefourofcups which is #todaystarot 🌊⭐️🌊 When the Four of Cups turns up in a Tarot reading, new invitations and opportunities are flowing to you, but for now, you’re saying “no” and turning them away. Perhaps the prospects do not interest you, or your cup is full, or you already have too much on your plate. Use your discernment to decide on what is truly important to you, and don't be afraid to decline new projects that don't align with your future path. #damedarcy #damedarcymermaidtarot #damedarcymermaidtarotgoldedition #nautical #motherhood #fairytales #fashionshoot #witchesofinstagram #fortunetelling #tarotdecks #mermaidlife @damedarcy https://www.instagram.com/p/B2oSEobFdML/?igshid=6a8u4reiirbx

As he left the bar, Avery caught himself in the window. Slip-on shoes, slim fit chinos, and a Christmas jumper. He looked ridiculous. But clearly, not ridiculous enough for this fine gentleman to turn him down. To be fair, he’d been a bit more of a challenge than most, and Avery’s pockets were much lighter after their six rounds of drinks. But as they staggered out into the street, he knew it was going to be worth it. From the bruise over his eye, to the stories he’d spun over the last few hours, it was obvious this guy had his fair share of enemies. All the better for him, of course. Jobs like this fetched a prettier price than most, and he was happy to collect. His friend for the evening had a few redeeming qualities, at least. The casual suit and converse combo was something he’d appreciated the moment he’d seen him, and his taste in films was something special. The Road, Reservoir Dogs, and, naturally, The Silence of the Lambs. Thinking on it, Avery almost felt bad about this. And it had been a while since he’d thought about anything. In fact, who was this man, to make him think? What gave him the right? Just like that, the thoughts were gone, and he let the door close behind them, shutting them out in the world. “You got a car?” The man had been speaking since they’d stood from their table, but to Avery, it was the first thing he’d said. “Just round the corner,” he answered. He smiled. He thought he’d like that. He was right. So he kept smiling, and they made their way through a poor excuse for rainfall. Each step seemed to bring this man closer to him, and before long, Avery found another’s arm slung over his shoulder. He thought he should speak now, so he did. “You’re drunk,” he said. All that did was make the man laugh. Avery supposed that was good enough. In the end, this wasn’t going to be the part he’d remember. They walked almost to the end before the suited man tripped over some non-existent obstacle. Avery decided to laugh, and helped him to his feet. They looked each other in the eyes then. A good thing too; he’d almost forgotten what his new friend looked like. It was as good a time for a double-check as any. Fluffy brown hair – check. Brown-green eyes – check. A beard you only expect to see on a fifteen year old – check. Well, that settled it. This was his guy. Silently, Avery said goodbye. He rushed him when more people left the bar. His job wasn’t a spectator sport. They were in the car quickly, then. His new best friend seemed impressed. “Damn,” he groaned, in an adorable attempt to sound enticing. “This is fucking nice, man. Chevrolet?” Avery didn’t answer. Still, he was pleased at least someone liked this thing. His red El Camino didn’t exactly fit with his wealth, and in the end, that was the point. The man must have imagined a reply, because he didn’t shut up. “Yeah, I thought so. I have an eye for that shit.” He seemed content to talk to himself. Avery let him, for however long the journey took. Before then, he was annoyed. Count down from ten, he decided. Just like he always did. Ten, nine eight… …three, two, one. He might have made more than one count, but at least they were here. The suit kept talking, even when Avery pulled him from the car, and the two of them staggered toward a single light in an empty building. Windows were smashed, doors missing, but one room here was his. “We’re almost there, mate,” he cut in, as the suit trailed off from his rant about some show or another. They were in, now. The hard part was over, and his catch took a look around. A red armchair, a red blanket, red walls. “This is pretty fuckin’ dirty, man.” He laughed, and made a sound not dissimilar to a pig. “I can’t wait.” He smiled, and Avery smiled too. “Oh, you’ve got nothing on me,” he replied, and like that his jumper was on the floor. It was cold, but he reckoned it’d be warmer soon. “Your turn.” The jacket came off. The man sat down. Avery didn’t. “How about some music?” he said. He didn’t wait for an answer. The rest was routine. He didn’t even have to listen to him. The conversation played out in his head. “Is that Ted Nugent?” “Yes, it is!” “Is that a tennis racket?” “Yes! IT IS!” The first hit was good – a strong backhand, that sent a flurry of blood and teeth flying. The second came down on his falling head like a guillotine. The third cracked his skull, and then he lost count. The body lay in the same place as many had before, and Avery let the crimson pool around his feet. Disposal was always easiest. A saw and acid from behind the chair, and the hard part was over. Back, forth, back, forth. Each motion brought him closer to escape. And before long, he found another’s arm slung over his shoulder.

Seeing the world he’d once been a part of seemed to jog his memory, if only slightly. Setting out on foot, he watched the sun circle him overhead, and continue on to noon. He passed a village, crossed two rivers and a third, before following it north to Askaron. It was there he stopped, yet only for a moment, marvelling at the absurdity of civilisation. Houses alongside one another, with floors one above the other. And the people. Gods, he hadn’t thought he’d see so many in his lifetime, let alone at once. He allowed himself a smile, before he caught himself yawning and moved onward. For such a prolific town for trade, Jaromierz was disappointed to learn that a bundle of squirrels was not ample payment for seemingly any tavern owner. However, one such owner had the kindness to direct him to Dorugh-Dur, telling him of the river to cross, and the trek northwards through the mountains. He gave him a squirrel for his trouble, and went on his way. With each hour that passed him by, he felt his steps grow fainter, felt his eyelids grow heavier. Every second of darkness, sleep beckoned to him, and every second he refused. He didn’t stop walking for two days, where, exhausted, bruised and filthy, the ranger stood at the open gates of Dorugh-Dur. He shut his eyes. He opened his eyes. He moved forward. He could see the keep, mere minutes away. He breathed, and shook, and gritted his teeth. He shut his eyes. He opened his eyes. He moved forward. Step, step, step, step. He staggered down the road like a dying man, hitting the foot of the hill and nearly falling. But he wouldn’t. He couldn’t. He shut his eyes. He opened his eyes. He moved forward. The guards saw him long before he reached them. They were saying something he could not hear, but he understood well enough. He was likely quite the sight. He heard one laugh – or choke perhaps. The noise was similar enough. Jaromierz took a deep breath, extending his hand in offering, and called out her name… But they did not listen to his words. They stared at his bare arm, bruised and bloody from travel, with runes tattooed into the digits of his dirty fingers. Without another word, they took him by the arm – soft, like a child – and he was moving. It wasn’t long before they stopped, and one of them spoke out. “Lady Sora,” he began, and Jaromierz took a step, near blind with tiredness. He shut his eyes. He opened his eyes. He moved forward. A figure stood before him, saying something or another that he wasn’t hearing. He shut his eyes. He opened his eyes. He moved forward. He could see and hear more of her now. His gaze went upward. Dark boots. Brown trousers. Red tunic. Leather waistcoat- He stopped. Blonde hair… He shut his eyes. He opened his eyes. And there she was. Taller than before, was the first thing he noticed. Then came her green eyes, more piercing, more cold than before. Her face, bearing a new, large scar, running from her nose to beneath her neckline. And then, last of all, his mind’s voice spoke, and with it came the largest change of all. He smiled. She’s a woman. He shut his eyes. He opened his eyes. She moved forward. “Jaromierz…” He swayed, and smiled. “Doe.” He shut his eyes.

“I wasn’t always a captain, believe it or not.” Abruptly, he stood, made his way to the drinks cabinet, and poured two whiskeys with a shaking hand. Sighing, he sat, placing the second glass on Sky’s side of the table. She furrowed her brow. She didn’t touch it. Alas, he didn’t seem to care, and continued unhindered. “I remember when I was like you. All through the Program, all through police service – all the way up to seven years ago. I think…” He stopped – took a drink. Swallowing, he finished. “I think we would’ve liked each other. “Because we’d both see the world as we believed it. As we wanted it to be. Idealism – it’s admirable, but it doesn’t survive reality. When you finally step out there…” He waved a hand to the emptiness through the window. “…and that first bullet whizzes past your head, and into someone else’s… then, you understand.” He drank again, then twice. Three times. Feeling goosebumps on her skin, Sky broke the silence. “Understand what?” she asked. He laughed – as though the answer was obvious. He set the glass down, and leaned forward in his chair. “I was a lance corporal,” he said, “when the war took me away. A letter, a hurried goodbye to my family, and off I went. Halfway to Uvillig – alone. No friends for a good few miles, except for one girl. My sergeant. Durvey, was her name. Jessica Durvey.” He went on. “I went there as her corporal,” he told Sky, “and her corporal I remained, until a Druid and his shotgun saw fit to give me a promotion. Blew her head apart, right… right in front of me. Nothing we could do – nobody’s fault. But just like that, there I was. A sergeant, at twenty-three, with the lives of six men and women in my hands. And people came and went to fill the space we had – temporary transfers, mostly. And we got our fair share of characters. But there was this one guy, this… one… person – this one, stupid prick – that I will never forget. Marc. He looked like your friend James, only… think of a James that drinks a shot of whiskey with his cereal in the morning.” He let out a chuckle – more of a hollow breath than anything – his eye regarding Sky with cold precision. “Anyway,” he went on, “loud guy. Always something to say – some comment, some joke. Funny guy, I’ll give him that. He joined our squad about a week after we lost Jess, and we all… carried on, I suppose. “So we get back to patrolling, and every day, we’d move a little further up the road. And every day, we’d be shot at by the same asshole hiding in a bush, half a mile away. And this wasn’t the kind of person to scare me, either. This guy was just frustrating. Always just too far away for us to make a move on him. There was nothing we could do, but sit behind some rocks, fire off a shot or two, wait for the cavalry to come chase him away, and then back out we went; back to fight him the next morning.  And it went on like that for a bit. Me trying to keep my glorified college class alive – Marc favouring the sound of his own voice to the orders I gave him. And we were getting by. Despite him. “…but one day… the main force is at a stand-still, and it’s just us scouting ahead. And we go down the road a ways, and it’s the usual shit. Hoping bullets can’t get through sheet metal – that kind of thing. Only that time… this pathetic vermin… gets himself stuck under a truck. And a shot catches him in the leg. “And he’s crying, swearing to no-one in particular, telling us over and over that we need to help him; practically praying it aloud. And he’s way out in the open; anyone heading towards that truck is a prime target for that prick in the woods. And I tell him to shut up, but he won’t stop screaming. So I make a call.” ‘Melting’ was the only word to describe Drapsmann’s devolution, his expression fading from hardened to pained. Almost grieving. “We lost four men before we got him out,” he said. “Good men – better, men. Friends. People I’d have died for.” “But you saved him?” she cut in, almost too hopefully. The breath came again, coupled with a crack in his voice. “Obviously,” he answered, his face contorting in a mocking smile. “Had to try, right? Anyway, we patch up his leg, get back to the bunker, and he hasn’t said a word. And as soon as we get inside, he starts limping off to the corner, like… like a kid caught stealing from the bread bin. “So I grab him by the scruff of his neck, and I slam him so hard against the wall I think I’ve cracked his skull, and I tell him ‘I swear down, if you endanger my people again, I will this, and that, and blah, blah, fucking blah.’ And he does something he hasn’t done his whole life. He listens. “But, two days later, he died. Obviously. Got put in two places by a roadside bomb. When I got to him, he was screaming so loud, I couldn’t hear the gunfire. “And while I looked down at him there – crying, laid in a mangled pile of himself, bleeding into the dirt – that, was the moment. That, was when I understood. “I sacrificed four living men… all to save a dead one. Somehow, I know; I won’t do that again.” He stood, and opened the door. An icy chill broke into the room, but Sky was already freezing. “There’s no saving the dead ones, Sky,” he said. And with that, he was gone, disappeared into cold blackness. She sat there for the longest time, unable to move, unable to do anything. She looked to the empty chair before her, and out to the autumn night. The sky wept, and puddles formed at her door. The patter of the rain was almost rhythmic, beating out an anthem to a doomed youth. She could hear it in the rain. In the wind. Singing. The world was singing, and Sky was afraid.

The road into the Old Hills remained bare this morning. A shame. Orgrinn had wanted snow. Spurring his carriage further into the woods, the Dwarven merchant chuckled at the thought. Typical of the Nineteen, he mused. Can’t even give me a bit of snowfall in a Pelorian autumn, no matter how nicely I ask. Shrugging, he threw the Gods to the back of his mind for the thousandth time. More immediate folk required his attention. There were four of them, to be more precise. Well, five if you counted the weasel. Looking over to his right, he saw the thing scrabbling around in his passenger’s lap. That was, unfortunately, not the strangest thing to be seen in that seat. Trying not to furrow his brow too openly, Orgrinn surveyed the dark-skinned, purple-haired gnome sat beside him. Vibrant robes adorned his body, and the ends of tattoos could be seen on his bare palms. Occasionally, the Dwarf swore he could have seen them glow, yet always out of the corner of his eye. Contrary to his expectations, the boy had been amicable for the journey, and made for some interesting – if not slightly baffling – conversation over the last few days. For now, however, “Mallow” as he claimed himself to be named, was silent, his eyes wandering to the sky as if he’d never seen clouds before. Orgrinn made sure the horses were on course, and chanced a look over his shoulder, peering through a parting in his wagon’s cover. Two people sat within – a Human man of quite some age and many, many scars, and an Elven woman sporting a blonde, short head of hair, and an aesthetic far more pleasing to the eye. An Everician bastard sword sat between them, and the woman’s dark steel longsword sat across her lap. The pair were whispering to one another. About what, Orgrinn didn’t care. The woman – Naia was her name – had been very clear with her request. “A few hundred gold, a couple of days on the road, and once we part, we have never met. Understood?” The Elf didn’t seem like the kind you wanted to anger. Something sinister sat about her. Add to that the exorbitant fee she’d offered, and he wasn’t about to argue. And so, keeping his promise, he hummed to himself a lullaby, and looked beyond them to the road itself. For out behind them, walking stoically along, was a Dwarf. Orgrinn often took comfort in the presence of one of his own kind. Luthdirians were, of course, a dying breed, and had been for millennia. This one, however… something about him felt wrong, set the merchant’s stomach to churning. Whether it be his hair – a fiery red mess that seemed to shine through even the darkest clumps of dirt matted into it – his ancient Dervundirian waraxe, or the fact that he trailed behind his comrades like an attack dog, Orgrinn did not know. Perhaps it was all three. Regardless of the reason, there was no denying that something about “Voltokar” terrified the merchant. Soon, he realised he was staring. And so, he turned his attention back to the road, gave the reigns another shake, and spurred the horses onward. All was silent for a time. But as the sun shall rise in the east, so too was it inevitable what happened next. Mallow Spinoza started talking again. “Are we there yet?” he asked, his Hammerfast accent contrasting greatly with his darker-skinned, Kaeperian appearance. Orgrinn sighed. “No, sir.” From behind, a female voice breathed to the boy. “Mallow, sweetheart, look around you. Does it look at all like we’re there?” The Gnome surveyed the road, the trees, the empty wilderness. “Fair point,” he concluded. “So, are we nearly there yet?” The merchant opened his mouth to speak, but the woman, thankfully, noticed his impatience. “It’s alright, Orgrinn,” she assured him. “You keep your eyes on the road. I’ll do the talking.” “Don’t need to ask me twice.” There was laughter – two people. A soft, lilted giggle from the right, and what was essentially a cough from the left. “Thanks a lot,” came the voice of the second – a thick, deep tone that sounded like moving rubble. “Dunno how long I’ve been expecting him to talk in my direction. It's fuckin’ terrifying.” The first laugh rang out once more. The air filled with a wonderful sound, and a flock of birds took flight. “Harrisen, darling; let’s not be harsh on the boy for his boredom. This is his first journey out, after all. I’m sure you can remember the childlike wonder of exploration, back when you were a young boy.” There was a pause. “Probably,” she added. A sharp exhale and a swig from a bottle later, and the wagon fell silent for the thousandth time.