#thedecison

I don’t know how to explain this..it’s a weird coincidence. But, lebron & I have some things in common. lebron left the cavs in the summer in 2010, for the Miami heat. He got a ring in 2012 & is currently in prime position to win a 2nd one. In 2014, he can become a free agent once again. Now, me, in the summer of 2010 I tried my hardest to get sak, I eventually failed. In 2011, she reappeared, & me & Steph, became friends & formed a big 3. I have near been so close to sak. Right, when lebron was about to get his first ring, I was positioning myself to get sak. Lebron won, I choked. & here’s where I relate. Steph has talked about her desire to move to Florida in 2014. Anytime I hear this, I try to ignore it, but it bothers me, I try to let it be “future me’s” problem. Steph has emerged as one of the closest people I’ve ever known. Being with her, has made me regret not being friends with her sooner. she posses a great personality & a good/great looks. The thought of losing Steph, makes me sad. I do have a crush on her…I do love her. & if she leaves, I’d have to rebuild my life again. She still doesn’t know I like her (or at least I haven’t told her) There’s growing suspicion that she kind of knows how I feel. I am getting to the point where I’m almost ready to tell her. Even onoine a random person mentioned “if i can deal with her odor, i can probably tell her how I feel. Seriously, I don’t know how I can like a girl that has the worst smelling feet a girl can have (vinegar), she tellse when she’s on her period, & she farts “rotten eggs”. But, I now do daydream about her a lot. But, there are risks. I have a couple of crucial days to note. In July or August her ex returns, so maybe it’s important I tell her before that. But, I don’t want that day to come when she’s preparing to leave to Florida. By that time I would have told her. Or maybe I’ll never tell her, I don’t know. When she leaves, it would hurt too much, to like her from afar. It’s a decision I have to make. lebron has an easier choice to make than me. I have I decide if I want to risk telling her, & she leaves. Maybe, I need to stop being like lebron, but once I’m over my lack of clutch, I think I’ll be ok. The one thing that holds resonance to me is what Sak told Steph today that Steph plans to go to Florida. "What would he do without you?" Strong words from a girl that broke my heart