#the-hole-diddler

RIGHT??? i fuckin love little nicky. i swear to god like no ones seen it and even less people actually like it and I DONT GET IT like its SO iconic 

Justice: A decision you wish you could do over

ummm i wish i could do over the way i went about selecting classes last semester 

The Sun: Your happiest memory

oh god this is such a tough question. i dont know what my happiEST memory is, but heres some of my top ones i can think of rn: 0winning a contest by my favourite band + getting a signed test pressing vinyl of which there were only ten made and im the only fan who got one, -seeing some excellent bands with one of ym best friends over a 2 day festival that bothh set us on an important path in terms of musical tastes and really cemented our friendship, -my eleventh birthday party where i had a gd jumping castle, -any of many memories of playing lego with my brothers, -visiting my best friend in another town when i was a kid-any of the memories of first getting my pets.

yeah yeah yeah!

I don’t draw nearly as often as I should and I’m super undisciplined due to mostly teaching myself but I draw almost every day and have done so ever since I was a child

Oh no I'm fine, it's just, like, when someone breaks up with you, there's always this feeling like you could have done something differently to keep it together, but when we broke up there was nothing. We were too far apart and she wasn't happy where she was so she had to end it. Sometimes when you talk to someone you just forget how far away you are, and you forget how different your place in the world is because it's so easy to keep in touch with people so far away.

It just hurts because she looked so happy when we were together. She looked radiant and she was strong and sharp and she always had a joke or a pun and her eyes would shimmer when she was excited and when I looked at her sometimes I would forget to breathe. And when we broke up she just sounded so defeated the strength was gone from her voice she just couldn't do it any more and it killed me to see someone I cared about so much like that and to know I couldn't do anything for her.

And like I still have feelings for her and if we were in the same city I would be with her in a heartbeat but I can't do it. I miss her, and I miss how happy we were, but I just think that that joy is a goal for me. I will find someone, maybe it's her and maybe it's someone else, and they will make me feel the same way, or they will make me feel even stronger.

I can't hold on to that moment forever but it's like a goal for me. I want to find someone who makes me feel the way I did that night. I want to find someone I can make feel that way. Someone who feels safe when they're with me, like nothing can stop them. I want to look at someone and see them glowing, and then to forget to breathe for a moment when I realize they're glowing because of me. I want someone who can't hear my heart rushing as we lay tangled in bed because their ears are filled with the sounds of their own heart pounding. I want someone I can look at and make me think holy shit this person likes me and makes me forget what I was about to say. I want someone who can shut me up with a single word, whispered gently into my ear. I want someone who's happiness is my number one priority.