#thavron

saw these and thought of you!

NO DUDE YES EXACTLY!!!!!!!! i think about that all the time. like he’s so aggressively loyal to belle and his found family staff and it absolutely comes out in such a sinister way. like when he finds out that someone at a ball was rude to his beloved?? all hell breaks loose.

i also have a ~plot~ that i’ve never fully written, it’s more just a storyline i like to play out in my head sometimes, where someone was SO disrespectful about belle talking TO ADAM that adam just loses it and clocks the guy right in the nose. and it’s such a spectacle and adam is honestly stunned at his own actions. like he’s LIVID but he’s also immediately terrified because belle witnessed it and he never wanted her to see him lose his temper again. so he quickly leaves the room and belle runs after him.

he’s shaking and angry at the situation and himself and belle comes in asking if he’s okay but he just keeps backing away from her because he doesn’t trust himself and he feels so ashamed for letting her see that. eventually belle manages to get him to sit down so she can tend to his bloody knuckles (YEAH) and he apologizes and she says he has nothing to apologize for. she knows he wouldn’t just do that on a whim. she knows it was warranted. and it was but adam just feels so sjdkdjfk.

anyway you’re so right dude. amen brother. i love it. because YEAH LIKE??? sure he’s changed and grown but you don’t just snap your fingers and remove a temper like that lmao. he learns to manage it better (over time, with belle’s help) but yeah of course it’s still going to come out in quiet, vicious ways. he’s always going to be just a bit cunty!!! i love that bitch.

sorry it took me so long to answer this my brain just would not cooperate with this particular question. ANYWAY:

1. who is/are your comfort character(s)? oh golly my friend you spoil me!!!!! hehehe. well of course my comfort characters are adam and belle. and honestly i would include belle’s father maurice as well because i go through those periods of time where i am just fully only thinking about him. it’s like adam and belle go on some fancy little trip or something and my brain just stays home and latches onto maurice while they’re away LMAO. maurice is just so sweet and carries so much trauma and guilt in him and i love exploring it. how wonderful his time was with maria and then how quickly it was all snatched away from him… him raising his daughter all on his own and just DEALING with life. AGH. i love that guy.

but anyway, adam is definitely number one. i connect to him in so many ways (even beyond my own understanding) and i just. love him so much. like he’s just in my HEAD. 90% of my fics are just accidentally from his perspective. like i try to keep it neutral between the two of them but it always ends up being more in his head than belle’s. adam’s my homeboy he’s my lad he’s my sweet cheese!!! i’m endlessly defensive of him to the rest of the world and constantly proud of him in his own. his growth and learning to trust the goodness in his life, after all the shittiness he’s experienced, it’s just So Good.

i also love belle so so so much!!! SO MUCH!!! i just posted a character study about her becoming a queen and wife and mother when she never remotely imagined she’d get to be those things and just like. exploring her thoughts on it. and it was really fun!! i DO have big thoughts about her!! i also connect to her A LOT, she’s such a wonderful character and i hope to continue exploring her. she’s brilliant and kind but she’s also got this thorny sadness to her that makes it even more compelling. she’s not as perfect as adam thinks she is. that’s why they need each other so much! they’re both hurt from their pasts, from being isolated and feeling like no one in the world understood them, and now they have each other and it’s just!!!! AHHH.

22. what type of person are you? oh man i definitely don’t have the self-awareness to answer that. i’m… hopefully good? i think i’m very loyal… maybe funny sometimes? i don’t like socializing at all (it’s the autism) so i am probably something of a loner. though i also feel quite lonely at times. feel like no one understands me but that’s no one’s fault, i just don’t understand myself. hm. anyway i’ll move on before this turns into a therapy session.

24. if we were together on a rooftop, what would we be doing? i think we’d be eating some sort of fast food and maybe a movie would be playing on a laptop. we’d have blankets on and our laughter from the movie would echo out to the rest of the cityscape.

40. did you have any snacks today? well not yet i just woke up!! last night though i ate some cheese puffs which are among my absolute favorite snacks <3

27. Three things you love about yourself. aggghhh it is hard!! let’s see:

i don’t know i feel like i’m a very loyal and caring person to the people in my life. like as a friend, sister, daughter, coworker, i think i’m quite good at tending to the relationships in my life and caring for my people. i don’t have many of them (and i prefer it that way) so it’s maybe easier for me to make sure they all feel loved by me, As They Should

my writing ability. i’m not here to toot my own horn or say i’m some shakespeare or whatever, because i’m not! but i really have always been writing. i remember being like four years old, standing at my dad’s side while he typed on his laptop (a very big and clunky one) as i dictated a story i had made up. he’d print it out and i’d draw pictures on the bottom (because it was only ever like, a paragraph) to illustrate. i’ve always hoarded journals and began different novels in them. i started writing fic when i was 12 without even realizing it was fic — i just wanted to dive into bbc sherlock’s childhood. i’ve always loved writing assignments in school and i’ve always excelled at essays and such. idk!! i just love writing and even if i’m not amazing, i’m confident enough to know that it very much comes naturally to me, and i really like that about myself.

i’ll do a flippant third one like you and say my smile :) i think i have a very lovely smile hehehe

my second favorite movie is forrest gump. it was my number one favorite for a long time, since i was a kid, until batb 2017 came along and ruined my life (affectionate) (beloved) (honorific)

now second question is Hard. i never know what to recommend to people!!! i always assume nobody wants to hear about things i like. i definitely do recommend forrest gump if you by chance have not seen it. but it’s a classic so you probably have. a much lesser known film that’s super super beloved to me, my 4th favorite movie, is big fish! it’s tim burton so it is a very weird and wacky time. but it’s similar to forrest gump in that it’s about LIFE (and also they’re both some guy from alabama storytelling about his life specifically. if i had a nickel for every time—)

there it is!!!!

i ended up writing the anniversary of the curse being lifted instead of their wedding anniversary, i was just too caught up in the euphoria of 🌸✨june✨🌸 but anyway i hope you like it 🥺🥺

3. What playlists do you have on your phone? i got lots of playlists on ye olde spotify! most of them are categorical like party songs, love songs, classic rock, classical, that kind of thing. i have an adam/belle playlist and also a maurice/maria playlist, because those are my Babies. and i also have a stim song playlist that i don’t listen to as a playlist, it’s just a collection of songs that i love to listen to on repeat individually. OH i also have a few that are called “[name] songs” and they’re each made up of songs that my friends recommend to me and i like them. so they go into their own little playlists.

5. Guilty pleasures? i don’t feel guilty about my pleasures. afjskdj no but honestly i don’t know ?? i’ve frankly never understood this term. i have my interests and i don’t know how to be quiet/secretive about them. what ya see is what ya get

29. How different is your actual adult self from how you pictured it when you were little? gosh. idk. i didn’t think much about the future because it scared me. i definitely ASSUMED, as i think many little kids with no concept of time and adulthood assume, that i would like, get married and start having kids by the time i was 25. because that seemed So Old. but other than that i don’t know what i thought adulthood would be like. of course i thought it would be simpler and easier than it actually is, but nothing more specific than that. i didn’t know i was autistic or on the ace spectrum, so there was no implication that life would be different for me than society expected. all that to say, i honestly don’t think i’m that different. i still feel like me, just with more challenges and obstacles than before.