Not having a blatantly obvious physical disability is rough sometimes cause work…

Sometimes they will ask me to do a lot of physical labor and if I refuse they think im making excuses and if I power through it 90% of the time (like now) I sustain real injury and have to leave early

WHICH OF COURSE is followed up by either “Why were you lifting more than you could? You know better ” or more commonly “That was barely anything and it needs to get done…you can’t keep leaving early all the time”

Something REALLY WEIRD is going on today.  I thought I was just being forgetful but now I am wondering what is going on.

Today and work when I went to the restroom I looked up in the mirror and noticed a long read scratch crossing my neck right over my jugular. I thought it was kind of odd because if it was there before I probably would have noticed it and I don’t remember scratching it on anything.  Sometimes when I’m concentrating I scratch a bit at my neck, so I just assumed I forgot bumping it or didn’t notice scratching it. This was in the morning.

After dinner I was changing into my PJs and on my thigh there were more scratches.  Two parallel lines going diagonally one direction and the same thing diagonally in the opposite direction.  Together it made an X.  I looked in the mirror and checked, and that one on my neck was still there.  Like...These were not little scratches.  They weren’t bleeding, but deep enough where they weren’t going away.  Again, I thought it was kind of weird.  This time I checked to make sure there wasn’t any scratches I was missing, and decided to pay more attention if I felt itchy or if i was scratching from that point.

Less than 3 hours later my back actually hurt a bit.  Like a light stinging on the right side.  I’m taking new medicine, so I wanted to make sure I didn’t have a rash or something and I checked.  This time there were to parallel lines going diagonal.  THESE ONES actually hurt.  I definitely would have noticed if I knocked into something or scratched that deep.  They are still stinging.  Again, they aren’t bleeding but there are little specks dotted inside like they could potentially bleed if they were any deeper.  

I’m friggin’ paranoid now like I’m not making this up.