#tenthousanddoors

i forgot about this ajshsjhd sorry omg

56. the 1 by. taylor swift

hi thank you! #3 is Groceries by Mallrat :)

I just wanna get groceries I'll pray you wanna get close to me I'll give it some, give it some, give it some time But I think we're supposed to be

Sometimes being with Ransom is the moment between waking up and the alarm, when dreams are so near you can slip back into them. These are the days it doesn’t matter that they’re not both in love with each other, because they laugh in sync and step in sync and breathe together; because they live together and play together and brush teeth together; because, now and then, when it’s late and they’re drunk, they fall asleep in each others arms. Holster would give up a lot to exist side by side like this.

Other times this bond between them is so taught he can’t bear it. Like this. Grocery shopping as bros is fine and as lovers is fine, but as bros-not-lovers is exquisitely, uniquely painful. 

“Holtzy.” Rans bumps him with the shopping cart, eyebrows raised. “You in there?”

“Yeah,” Holster says, “I’m in here.”

This is an intimacy that speaks to others. He needs, he thinks, as he hands Rans a gallon of milk and a jug of OJ, to find that line again. They can’t be best bros when one of them is lovesick over the other. The problem is they’ve stepped over that line so many times. He’s not sure which side he’s standing on anymore.

7: watermelon sugar by harry styles

18: twin sized mattress by the front bottoms

46: human by dodie (ft. tom walker)