i have thoughts abt steph being like. can i ever be satisfied with this normal extremely vanilla life. grace is sweet, and steph likes her, but also the total whiplash from her last long term relationship being this fucked awful thing makes it hard to. relax. girl who has forgotten how to be normal. and grace obviously doesnt know what healthy dating is like so there's the constant overarching what if i'm accidentally overstepping + being super fucked up to this girl who has 0 basis to recognize a toxic relationship. again w the ruined for other people, doesn't even know what functional looks like, doesn't know if she'll ever be capable of it again. thanks, lex!

also worried abt eventually having to explain the scars and the rehab and the lex situation in general. it's like. grace is clearly too nervous to do it early on, but one day she Will ask. and once she knows she'll obviously think it's all gross and scary and leave. steph is sort of trying to ride it out. the 'do nothing and hope it never comes up' approach. but she's worried abt it + feels like the end of their relationship is inevitable because of this secret she's keeping + generally just feels really gross about it all. chat does she know (grace is having a completely separate solo crisis over sadistic thoughts she doesn't understand) (girl who has not so much as imagined the concept of bdsm) (0 idea why she's suddenly attracted to scars) (they are extremely compatible but deeply unaware of it/convinced the other is going to think they're a freak)

^ both of them lol. ok. sorry. ive written So Much about this it's actually embarassing. apologies if its wildly ooc. im just a little silly abt them hopefully you can see the vision. totally understandable if not. sighhh

can i be so honest with you i wasn't. Super big on lautity before this. i mean i LOVED them in theory & definitely do think grace has feelings for steph in every possible universe, especially in ac dear god, however. i never really thought grace would be able to let go of her puritan ideals & actually let herself love steph. but fuckkkk holy fuck. Okay

the whole. both of them thinking "oh god she can Never find out i'm a freak or else she'll leave me" is soo delicious. also SADIST grace i'm SORRY yes please. hello. fucking dies???????

lex having "ruined" steph & then this sadistic churchgirl with pigtails & clips in her hair comes along like ohkay this is an entirely new LEVEL of fucked up. jesus

i am more fascinated by the fact that you work with knives....is that your job.....sharpening knives. anything with knives. that's so fucking cool hiii.

i just. ugh. augh. the way their relationship develops drives me crazy. you were cooking i need to think about them all the time actually

SCREAMING SCREECHING DYING. BLEEDING.

oh snapping my fingers for this you're insanely correct....this is so 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

do you think she's from hatchetfield? went to a different school from zoey/hailey and just never met? or is she from elsewhere...and why on earth would he move to hf LOL

i was also wondering if u have thoughts on umm. why shes with greenpeace. because paul tgwdlm was not incorrect about greenpeace being a really ineffectual way to save the planet. i have a really autism heavy interpretation of this situation but would love to hear urs......

what do u think her dream job was in school. did she want to work with animals or in research or like. obviously she wants to make people care but i dont necessarily think she Aspired to giving lectures on street corners. he knows he probably isn't the ideal person for that (autism) (though that does make her very. shameless. about promoting it)

but like. she definitely wanted to be doing fieldwork right. at least for a bit. girl who needs to be a guy frolicking in the woods. i also think he would maybe enjoy running little nature education programs for kids....... or at least shes the one w all the little fun facts and identification skills. would make a great hiking guide or whatever she's very sure-footed in nature + confident in her sense of direction (hailey is hopeless abt this even in hatchetfield where shes lived her Whole Life + zoey can follow a map but does not know where north is. there is a reason harmony holds the leash shes the only one who knows where theyre going). sorry. rambling. i care her

HIIIIIII HARMONY JONES ASK......my favorite butch. omg.

i definitely do think she's from hatchetfield but went to sycamore.....

can i be so so honest. can i be horribly honest. i have no fucking idea why she's with greenpeace. like i've thought about everything. maybe there's nothing else in hf. maybe that's the best there is. maybe she needs to...start somewhere? i i have no clue. harmony to me is so radical about saving the planet and Greenpeace is just.......not. exactly that.

when i was first writing my harmony character analysis i did a lot of research on like environmental engineering. and i think she does work like that, as in. science. bc i think. okay. i think she might be worried about physical work not being Enough. like she needs to be educating people and what better way to do that than to sit in a lab or do research etc etc etc. She DOES volunteer for lots of things i believe. she loves farms and Does visit perky's buds a lot. to buy weed & visit ziggy. harmony & emma meeting when??? harmonemma i miss you...my ex mutual came up w it i think but they blocked me so i'm taking over. some other time

you are SOOO insanely correct. harmony going to the woods or a field to read a book or study just sitting & admiring nature......every animal every breeze............

oh. and this one just for fun

hoooly shit holy fuck. they make me so insane. them both being very aware of the danger they put each other in but they can't stop, it hurts so bad but so good

(its translated manga so. read right to left)

(manga is Eat (イート) by Nagabe) (i read it because the art is pretty. the toxic yuri allegories are just a bonus)

"i will leave you alone after this one" as if i don't actually giggle & kick my feet when i get a notif from you......

and holy shit? wait that's literally them. i feel like this reluctant-to-admit-she-liked-it steph is more. at the end/after a breakup (a "serious" one this time). at the beginning she jumps in head first and dives and she wants it all & at the end she's kind of. she still loves lex don't get me wrong but she's scared. like the black animal here. wants to pretend to be normal. she can live a normal life. she can do without lex. (she can't do any of that)