Please, donāt shoot.
I understand that you may feel threatened by the richness
of my heritage but please, donāt shoot.
Iāve got hopes and dreams written down in my back pocket
journal and I hadnāt planed to achieve them all by the time I
turned 18 so please, give me a few more years.
My mother has shed her fair share of tears over the past few
years so please, donāt make her shed more.
I hear you shot down another young man who kind of looked
like me so Iām starting to feel like thereās some kind of bounty
on my head. Maybe God loved having me in his kingdom so
much that he offered a lifetime of fear hidden by
self-righteousness to whichever one of you who could send
me back to him the quickest.
It may tempt you but please, donāt shoot.
I know you hate the fact that I see the melanin in my skin as
a blessing but Mama warned me that I may as well be a
corpse if I donāt worship this epidermis.
Sometimes I donāt feel safe, like my feet are poking out from
underneath the duvet and on those days I hope the boogeyman
is fast asleep because I reckon Iām on the top of his hit list.
So please Mr Boogeyman, please, donāt shoot.
Iām losing faith in this bible because it isnāt bulletproof even
though the words are strung toughly together like my
grandmotherās love but even she got a hole in her heart.
These streets arenāt safe for me, and no matter how much
music blares out my white earphones, I can still hear your
eerie footsteps behind me in the back of my mind.
I can still envision the black-hole of your gun barrel nuzzled
against my forehead, making itself at home with the words
ānigga, nigga, motherfucking nigga, niggaā rushing out your
mouth like a stampede leaving every bone of my dignity
shattered and bleeding black ink on the ground.
my mama donāt deserve to see me like this.
If you decide to kill me, please donāt plant a gun on my body.
I donāt want my mother spending the rest of her days
questioning her parenting.
Mama, you did the best you could but you couldnāt have saved
me.
I know my father used to wear a crown made of gold but all I
could find was this crown of thorns for myself⦠But my fatherās
first son used to wear one so, if you decide to shoot, youāll be
sending me home to Dad.
Iāll try and put in a good word for you.