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hi guys it's pride focus and today we

Request art 1x1x1x1 and Roblox angst. plss i know that Roblox hate 1x1x1x1 but i need some spicy and sadnesss (yes IM desperate for new content of o:r and yes i need an angst)

I feel like John Price would be a man who, unfortunately, was drafted into the idea that all men have to be providers. That he has to be the one who takes the world on his shoulders and gets the job done because he's THE MAN. He grew up around that sort of mentality with his father and it stuck to him like a bad smell because that's just who he is. He gets everything done no matter how dirty his hands are and no matter the blood shed. Because he's a man. He has to be this beacon of masculinity because without it, who is he? All his choices throughout his life were somone else's. This imaginary figure clinging to his Concious that he believes is the only thing keeping him from being some sad, pathetic loser. He has to chin up and keep everything bottled down because if he lets any of his true colours shine through then what is he but a shell of a man with no ties to anything that he has spent so long crafting. He's so set in his ways that any thought he sees as " abnormal " gets shut down and he simmers in his discontent because he's a man. He's not allowed the freedom of choice. The ability to choose who he wants to be with and why. Because he has this crushing guilt in his brain that tells him it's wrong. It's inhumane to want the life he wants, even if he knows it isn't entirely true.