Smiles... the thing that brings me back to being human. I'd like to talke about seizures; I do not always smile during a seizure, but sometimes I laugh and make jokes if I'm conscious enough... I'll throw a peace sign if my hand is cramping in a weird way. Or tell the scared man in the elevator that I'm just a mermaid out of water and I'll be dome flopping like a fish once I get back to the water....... often times, people don't joke back, because they are scared... but so am I, and I am trying to cope too, so I joke. Is it bad timing or terrible puns? Absolutely! But that is how I just keep swimming. Having memory resets afterwards or waking up in the garden or chicken coop not knowing who my family is... that still happens, rarely, but it does. Mainly when I am sick (like really sick with Covid) or a family member dies and there is stress, quite literally, it comes out through my body now. It never did before my Traumatic Brain Injury, I never had seizures, I'd tune out when overwhelmed, maybe have a moment of needing to calm, but never seizures and memory loss... this is still a challenge I am learning to cope with daily. The challenge of forgetting to eat, and not physically feeling hungry, forgetting to pee and ..... must I explain that one? Forgetting to get dressed and just wandering half clothed or without any. It is a challenge, one I often smile through. Smiling, though it does not take away the pain, can create a sense of ease to find what or who does make me smile. Moments in time, whether I remember fully or not, moments that are truly smilebringers, the ones that make you pause and thing, wow this is happening. So when I smile, and I can remember, it is a great smile, and a great feeling behind it, because it means it hold memories, either once made, or to be made in the moment. #Love #Life #Covid #TBI #TBIWontStopHer #Living #Smile #Happiness #Moments #Memory #Memories #WorthLiving #DontStompOnYourFresh #Loveit #Seizures #Brains #BrainInjuryAwareness https://www.instagram.com/p/ChSL84zrH8r/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
