Take A Chance
Something changed. I suspect it was my demeanour. My deduction is written in a story that I have written about us. For reasons known only to her she was disappointed in my action and inaction.
Because she was with a friend, we hang out a lot together. But I didn't know at that time, that was her. But she was very friendly to me and it is noticeable by everyone, even her boyfriend except for yours truly.
Yes I am hopeless (years later she hates it when I put myself down in this manner). Yes I know who she is and was now. That took over 20 years to confirm. But that is another story.
What taking a chance is all about here? Even if she did have a boyfriend I could have been just as friendly to her. Building up a friendship instead. We did become friends later, but by then, her mind is already made up and I lost the only greatest lady that truly cares for me forever.
The regret? I regret not taking a more affirmative action. I don't like regrets and whatifs but she is too wonderful not to regret. There remains a hole inside of me that can only be filled by her. I tried to forget her but I just can't.
I'll continue again someday on what happened after the anonymous letters stopped.
