Journal Entry 4: The Girlfriend Test
I want to put this here, this is Ghost from the future, I want to apologize on how much pressure I am putting on the console. This new ability can be exhausting to deal with, and this is the only way I know of to tap into an additional power source. Sorry you are having to deal with it Kinger.
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Well, I guess the only one left is Caine's not-girlfriend, but actually is a girlfriend. Caine gets stuck into technicalities way too often. I head in, it looks like there is just a nice little house on some land. I can actually appreciate the simplicity. Not everything has to be complicated to be pretty, and it is. Ragatha needs to teach this to Caine already, it'd solve so many problems, I swear to me.
I see her planting something it looks like. I don't know much about her aside from when I was sharing Caine's mind, so I am just going to go over there. If my brother thinks she is worth his time, then I should at least try to get to know her slightly better. I approached, not sure how to not startle her. Ragatha wouldn't except anyone else to be here. "...I am really sorry if I startle you." I figure a preemptive apology might help.
She looked a bit startled for a second, but seemed to calm down as her brain processed the apology and saw that I was just a bit away from her. "Oh, Ghost, I wasn't excepting to see you here! Did you need anything? I can go to my house and get some water for you." Ragatha was nice, sometimes too nice. I see why Jax said that he doesn't completely trust her in the past. It sometimes was hard to believe if someone like that is being genuine.
"Its fine Ragatha, I actually came here to see if you needed anything." I responded, knowing that it was possible that she'd be surprised by that.
"Well, everything is fine, at least at the moment." Ragatha tried to reassure me.
"I know you are lying Ragatha, so just be honest."
She sighed and looked a bit resigned. "I am sorry I lied Ghost, I am just sure you are just as worried as I am about Caine. I just don't like putting the pressure of something like that on a person who also might be struggling with it."
"You aren't putting the pressure on me though, you are just showing to me that you are also worried about someone we both care about."
"You're right, I guess I just sometimes don't think about it that way."
"He seems to be keeping something from all of us, and I don't like when he does that."
"I don't know what it would be though. Sure, he has been depressed lately, but him doing activities that allow creativity has seemed to genuinely help. I really don't know what else we can do here."
"I do, but he won't like it."
"What would that be?" Ragatha looked very nervous. I could do things that were a bit extreme in other people's eyes, not mine though.
"I look into why there are more connections outside of our universe, and get the truth if I can find anyone."
"D-do you really think that is a good idea? He might be talking to people he doesn't know as well to help cope with things."
"He won't tell anyone what is going on despite that spike in activity. I don't really see many other options. I know that it makes you nervous, but we can't lose him."
"...Yeah, you know, I wish I had someone like you when I was growing up."
"Why is that?"
"Because you seem to be willing to do so much to protect the people you care about. Sometimes the lengths are pretty extreme, but the fact you are willing to put yourself out there so much to help people you love is admirable."
I couldn't help but smile at the compliment. Alright, I was starting to get it. Someone willing to give you praise for something that they admired felt really nice. Caine having that reassurance must have helped him through a lot of shit lately.
"Thanks, I guess you pass the "can you be my brother's partner" test. I get it now." I responded, and I gave her a genuine smile.
I started to walk a bit so I could get closer, but I felt my heart suddenly sink into my stomach as I felt something familiar, the ground was collapsing again. I reached out out of instinct, hoping Ragatha would be able to help. She ran towards me, but sadly it seemed we had been just a bit too far from each other, and I felt the air on my paws again. I made sure I would land on all fours. I didn't like where this was going. Another set of dreams to deal with tomorrow, and the remaining options I wasn't very optimistic about.















