#taboomemory

You said it so casually. Like it was just some childhood anecdote. Like it wasn’t a biological crime scene confession.

“Oh my god, yeah, I saw my dad naked once… It was crazy. He had, like… a monster cock.”

And then you laughed. Moved on. Changed the subject. But I couldn’t.

Because my body went still. My brain stopped processing. And every nerve in me realized:

You weren’t traumatized. You were imprinted.

I. You Didn’t Just See It — You Catalogued It

Let’s be real. You didn’t just catch a flash of accidental parental nudity. You remembered the size. You used the word monster. And you said it like someone who can’t forget.

Do you know what that means?

Your brain didn’t register it as inappropriate. It registered it as arousing and forbidden.

And it did what the female brain has always done with high-power imagery: It stored it. For later.

Not because you wanted to. But because your nervous system did. On its own. Because that’s what biology does when it sees a threat or a god.

II. Women Are Biological Archivists. And You Just Admitted What Got Filed.

You didn’t mean to confess. That’s the part that made it real.

You weren’t trying to shock me. You weren’t trying to seduce. You were just… casually recalling the time your childhood ended.

And the worst part? You weren’t even embarrassed. You said it like it was a trivia fact:

“Yeah, I saw my dad’s cock once — biggest I’ve ever seen.”

You don’t even realize what that line did to me. Or to you. Because in that moment, you weren’t telling me about your father. You were telling me about your first sexual authority imprint.

And that? That’s something you don’t un-hear. That’s something you don’t un-become.

III. You Thought You Were Just Talking. But You Were Submitting.

That’s what killed me. You didn’t flinch. You didn’t say “ew.” You didn’t clarify or joke or say it was traumatic.

You said it with reverence. Almost… admiration.

“Monster cock.”

You paused between the words. You emphasized it. You relived it.

And in that moment? I saw something primal behind your eyes. Something I wasn’t supposed to notice. But I did.

And it wasn’t disgust. It was fascination. And a sick little glint of internalized awe.

IV. This Is What Nobody Talks About:

Women Don’t Just Remember Power. They Archive It.

When a woman sees something that short-circuits her understanding of male physicality — especially in youth — her brain doesn’t process it like a man would.

Men file under “shame” or “threat.” But women? They file under:

Power

Possession

Maybe one day, something like that will belong to me

You weren’t looking at your dad. You were looking at the archetype. The original. The first male form you couldn’t dismiss. And it left a mark.

V. You Didn’t Choose to Be Imprinted — But Now You’re Branded

Let’s talk science.

When a young girl experiences shock-arousal convergence (i.e. something taboo + something powerful + something unprocessed), her limbic system treats it as immediate importance. And it engraves it.

Even if she never touches it. Even if she runs from it. Even if she hates it.

The image stays. And over time? It mutates.

Into:

Curiosity

Erotic defiance

Shame-fueled obsession

And eventually… projection

Because here’s the dark truth:

The first man you feared is the one every future man gets compared to.

And that explains everything. From your dominance fixation to why you only come for men who scare you.

VI. You Filed It Away… and I Think You’ve Used It More Than You’ll Ever Admit

You didn’t tell me for fun. You told me because you wanted to be caught.

Not literally. Not sexually. But psychologically.

You wanted someone to hear it and not flinch. You wanted me to feel it with you. And I did.

The worst part? You didn’t realize you were confessing. You were just talking.

But that’s how the real secrets leak. Not in whispers. But in offhand remarks that sound safe — but reek of something ancient. And sexual. And uncomfortably honest.

VII. What Happens Now That I Know?

Now I can’t unsee you. Not the way you thought. But the way a man sees a woman who accidentally outed her kink — before she knew it was a kink.

You’re different now. You’re reframed.

You’re not the flirty friend anymore. You’re the one with a catalyst memory that rewired her sexual psychology before she even touched a boy.

And I’ll never forget it. Because I know what you filed. And I know why it stuck.

🩸 ORGASM-TRIGGERING DISCLAIMER

This post is a work of psychosexual satire, gender commentary, and neurological realism. Any physiological reactions — including pelvic tension, emotional disorientation, flushed arousal, memory recall, or the sudden urge to confess something taboo — are the natural results of cadence-based entrainment, mirror neuron manipulation, and subconscious shame-reversal triggers. This is literature. This is art. This is blacksite psychology for your nervous system.

🧠 QUOTE REBLOG PACK™

“She said her dad had a monster cock… and I don’t think she ever recovered.”

“That wasn’t a confession. That was an imprint.”

“You didn’t remember it. You archived it. And now it owns you.”

“The first man you feared is the one every future man gets compared to.”

“She didn’t flinch. She relived it.”

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