#t progress

My Kim Kitsuragi coat is wonderfully warm

so yeah, as of now, i'm 7+ months on T which is !!!! insane, its so crazy. i have a blood test coming up soon and then a follow-up appointment with the gender clinic to check on my progress and stuff. and i'm gonna switch from gel to shots because i'm sick and tired of putting the gel on every time and i'd rather suck it up with the needles and go on shots.

before i started T, and even a few months into it, i was very much on documenting every change and making update posts and vids and all that. but like. the longer i've been on it, the less i wanna do it. because. because. i don't feel like its something different and exciting anymore. which is actually incredible. it feels very normal and very mundane and like its just me its just a part of me its nothing special and different. me being trans is just a normal thing. and honestly, i never thought i'd reach that point. at least, not this early.

mentally, i feel so much happier. my depression although gets bad from time to time, its in a very different way than before. like before it was intense and heartaching and it made me cry uncontrollably. now its?? a dull ache, an emptiness. and all i wanna do is stay in bed and do nothing. since starting T, i haven't cried even once coz of Feelings. I've cried over fictional stuff but yeah. [side note, it hadn't been harder for me to cry like a lot of guys say]. but bottom line, I'm happier, I'm calmer, more confident, more content. and that's both T in general and also being more myself that it's easing my depression.

here's the kicker though. and its something i realized a couple of weeks ago. i'm happy with my body. fat redistribution is Very Slow duh but i can already see my hips getting less curvy. but uhhhh i'm not impatient for top surgery anymore. i can wait. yes, i still want to yeet the teets and i still hate my tiddies. BUT i don't hate it as much ya know? like i can tolerate it now? probably coz the rest of my body feels more like my own now. and i'm just happy with how things are. i don't mind it as much. my friends see me as a guy, i see me as a guy, my body feels so much more like my own. and like i will happily wait a few more years till top surgery its not my top priority atm. T is my top priority, i love how its changing my body and helping my mental health and just. i just love what its doing for me. i 10000% want top surgery still but i know how long the wait times are or how expensive it is otherwise so i can just wait till i can get it. it doesn't hurt me as much as it used to. now its all chill, i stand in front of the mirror and its like oh look its me.

physical changes under the cut coz Long

Wah I haven’t made many updates, but the most recent one is that the lower part of my belly has started to get fuzzy and I’m surprisingly excited about it!! 

also the fuzz under my chin has gotten thicker, so... not sure I can call it fuzz anymore. 

I was starting to get really strong at the gym, but they closed down for a soft lockdown so now I have to wait until they open again to continue.

however, I did like 140kg in leg press, which is just WOW to me.

And I did one set, 5 rep of 90kg deadlift. It’s not mindblowing male wise, but I would never be able to do that before I started T.

Also damn excited that my hips got a bit more narrow. 

I really really can’t wait to see what I’ll look like 6 months from now. how hairy will I get?! 

Gross gross pictures of my gross greasy face, but holy shit look at my sideburns coming in all the sudden! I've been off T for three months and will hopefully be starting again on Monday, but apparently it's still doin' it's thing regardless.

gUYS i officially have a small bit of scruff around my chin and i am so proud of myself i have spent the past two days feeling it. i feel like professor layton abt to expose someones criminal ass when i put my hand on my beautiful scruffy chin thakn u testosterone lords,,

i rrEEALLY want to post a selfie cause im also trying to grow my hair out and braid it on the sides!! im gonna have to gather my big dick energy and just take one already soon i hope! (i have 2 wait until i get all my clothes unpacked at my new house cause all i got rn are mnt dew and snoop dog shirts oops)

but yeh!!! if anyone lives in teaxs blease come to my house if u want and feel my face i will not rest until everyone i know irl has touched my chin