#syrniki

On with the story of how all this developed: By May 2024 I was being treated with 3x the regular amount of blockers to regulate these stress hormones, but it didn't do much, since the underlying reasons for them being as high were nothing I could resolve, however hard I tried. There were many additional health issues I went through and in parts am still going through in this time as well, that put me in critical condition, such as a bone inflammation caused by an infection merging with arthritis in my foot, resulting in a debridement surgery in September 2023, phlebitis as a result to wearing the intravenous parenteral port for so long in June 2024; having sinusitis for months, as a result from a lacrimal gland inflammation due to too much crying, inflammation in many organs connected to the digestive system (autoimmune pancreatitis, hepatitis, cholecystitis etc.) due to the intestinal and stomach inflammation and ulcers spreading and severe heart problems, due to a preexisting heart condition being worsened by the anesthesia during treatments, the physical weakness all this caused, as well as severe and ongoing stress that persisted daily due to a social situation over the course of 14 months. Eventually the underlying situation lessened a bit and I felt confident that my upcoming cancer surgeries & treatments would go well and finally bring the anticipated relieve I've waited for for so long with the necessary peace to prepare, go through all this and recover, before a final escalation happened, just days before the long-planned hospital stay for surgeries to cauterize the ulcers and remove cancerous growths in my digestive tract started on 16th September 2024. It continued to escalate in the background throughout this time.

But anyways, in early October 2024 I finally was able to start chemotherapy, away from all this. It works well so far, I'm doing better since, the hormonal overproduction has lessened somewhat & my mental health has stabilized somewhat. I'm still getting IVs, because my ability to digest is still inconsistent and there's been some throwbacks due to side effects of the chemo. And after over a year of no digestive function it was also questionable whether my system would be able to pick up work again at all or whether I'd simply kick the bucket and starve to death eventually. The IV nutrition was already a slow version of that, I lost more than half my weight since September '23, I barely have any muscles left and need to recover from all that and mental health damage... The bottom line is, 2024 and a large chunk of 2023 were really bad and thankfully 2025 looks significantly better. There's finally a treatment that works a bit and helps my health improve, although chemo mostly kills the diseased tissue and regrowing fresh one takes time, regeneration will never be flawlessly possible and there will be a lot of permanently impairments and scarred tissue inside of me. And the places I'm in and people I surrounded myself with are respectful of this and I feel at peace, loved and confident once more.

🌈🌼✨ But after all the hardships, I have a positive thing to share today 🌈🌼✨