#supernetural

Castiel x Reader-Supernatural

Word Count: 961

Song: H.O.L.Y. by Florida Georgia Line

Disclaimer: I don't own you, the song, or any elements of Supernatural, as much as I wish I did. You own, well you, H.O.L.Y. is owned by Florida Georgia Line and those other people, and Supernatural Is owned by whoever it's technically owned by. So yeah.

A/N: So I’m just gonna let you know now, that I’m gonna be on a roll tonight. So yeah.

Summary: After becoming human, Castiel is much more vulnerable to things such as night mares and fears, and also in much more need of comfort.

Key:

Y/N- Your name

When the sun had left, and the winter came, And the Skyfall could only bring the rain.

After becoming human, Castiel, a previous angel of the lord and natural badass, was broken. He would wake up screaming or sobbing, nightmares plaguing every moment of his sleep, whether they were memories or dreams resulting from his guilt and shame. He couldn't sleep one night without watching himself nearly kill you to get the angel tablet, kill his brothers and sisters, release the Leviathans, or watch the angels fall.

I sat in darkness, all broken-hearted. I couldn't find a day, I didn't feel alone,

While he was in the bunker, his room was right next to yours, and even through the walls, you could hear his screaming just loud enough to alert you to his distress. So every night you would end up in his room and embrace him, muttering sweet nothings in your boyfriend’s ear until he was able to fall asleep. He would always tell you not to, not wanting to disturb your sleep, but you shushed him every time and came again the next night anyway.

I never meant to cry, started losing hope. But somehow baby, you broke through and saved me.

But this night was different. In place of a simple memory, a montage played in Cas’s mind. Instead of the usual single memory, he saw every single kill and failure he had ever committed. So tonight not only did you hear the screaming but you heard crashes and the splintering of wood, causing you to grab the gun under your pillow and enter his room with it raised.

You're an angel, tell me you're never leaving. Cause you're the first thing, I know I can believe in.

There wasn't an intruder, but what you did see was almost worse. The nightstand looked as if it had been thrown across the room, and the lamp was shattered on the ground. In the far corner, almost completely hidden by the shadows, was your blue-eyed angel. Normally he would be sitting straight up in his bed but this time he had his knees pulled up to his chest, arms wrapped around them. He had tears in his eyes and on his face, but he wasn't sobbing. Instead, his silent tears were accompanied by the dull and lifeless look in his eyes that led you to drop your gun to the ground with a clatter and rush to his side.

You're holy, holy, holy, holy I'm high on loving you, high on loving you. You're holy, holy, holy, holy I'm high on loving you, high on loving you.

“Cas,” You spoke softly and put your hand on his shoulder but he kept staring straight ahead. “Babe I need you to look at me.

You made the brightest days from the darkest nights, You're the river bank where I was baptized.

“Why do you love me Y/N?” Cas spoke suddenly and looked you dead in the eyes. “You are beautiful, good, kind, intelligent and yet you choose to love a monster. Not only a monster but a broken one.”

Cleanse all the demons, That was, killing my freedom.

“Castiel,” You spoke sternly to be sure he caught the point, but cupped his face with one hand and used your thumb to gently brush away a tear. “We don't choose who we love. I love you because of who you are not what you've done. Besides I don't love a monster, I love you.” Cas opened his mouth to protest but you pressed a finger to his lips to quiet him. “A monster is someone who does terrible things just because they can and they have no regret or guilt. You regret the things you have done. That makes you a person that has made some mistakes. That makes you human, not a monster. As for being broken,” You sighed. “That I can't deny. But the only thing that means is now I'm going to help put you back together. And not because of pity or whatever but because I choose to. Because I love you.”

Let me lay it down, give it to ya, Get you singing babe, hallelujah. We'll be touching, we'll be touching heaven.

You pulled him into a hug and Cas buries his face into your neck. “How do you do that,” He muttered against your skin. “How do you manage to save me from me?”

You're an angel, tell me you're never leaving. 'Cause you're the first thing, I know I can believe in.

“Love lets us do things we never dreamed of,” You kissed the top of his head, and stroked his head until he was okay for you to lead him back to bed.

You're holy, holy, holy, holy I'm high on loving you, high on loving you. You're holy, holy, holy, holy I'm high on loving you, high on loving you.

You gave him one last kiss and went to return to your room but he grabbed your wrist, causing you to spin around.

I don't need these stars 'cause you shine for me. Like fire in my veins, you're my ecstasy. You're my ecstasy.

“Will you stay?”

You're holy, holy, holy, holy I'm high on loving you, high on loving you. You're holy, holy, holy, holy I'm high on loving you, high on loving you.

You gave him a smile and slid under the blanket, snuggling into his chest. He draped one arm around you and held you close. This time it was his turn to kiss the top of your head as you drifted off to sleep.

You're the healing hands where it used to hurt, You're my saving grace, you're my kind of church.

Neither of you had another nightmare that night.

- Wow! Dean is talking to Cas about Sam! And them having a heart to heart is heartwarming. Though I thought he'd tell him about Zeke possessing Sam...

- Gadriel? is that what he said? Oh my God he’s the reason Eve ate the apple? God’s most trusted, who made a mistake?

- Oh ha! Metatron got bored alone in heaven!

- Oh now he wants to remake heaven.

- I call it now that the fandom will explode with “Lucifer and Michael are also out now!!!” theories… though the angels imprisoned in heaven were released, I don’t think that those in hell were, too.

- Dean, stop blaming Cas’ leaving on Cas, you ass!