#sunlit star

i wanna wear a collar and crawl around on all fours and sleep in a dog bed on the floor and be fed my food in a dog bowl. i wanna be a dumb dog who gets in trouble and muzzled when i bite and snap. i wanna be chained up in the backyard when i accidentally destroy your stuff. i wanna get super sad when you leave me in a crate while you to go to work. and i wanna get super excited when you come home and let me out. i wanna hump your leg until you have to kick me off and call me a bad dog. i wanna be forced to take whatever you give me without being able to complain other than barking and whining and trying to squirm away. i wanna be told what to do all the time. i wanna be taught silly tricks. i wanna be shown off to all your friends when they come visit.

my left thigh has my big brother's name that they cut into me last night, one kinda deep cut, and the huge bruise from them biting me

my right thigh has 5 huge cuts from my big brother and they cut a heart and "big bro" super high on my thigh before they fucked me stupid

and then my neck is covered in marks from them

big brother who swings between being really really mean and hitting me and making me sleep on the floor like a bad mutt and being really sweet and loving and calling me a good boy for never getting upset or talking back and lets me curl up in his human bed with him

big brother who makes up fake rules and never tells me them so i always end up messing up even though i didn't know i wasn't supposed to do something, he just needs an excuse to kick me in the ribs until I'm sobbing and apologizing for being a bad puppy