#sungri

Sungri: Nešto razmišljam, mogli bi onu rakiju ovaj vikend popiti?

covering your face, you walked out of the staff office with taedong and wished that things would end right here and now.

YOU: *oh my god i'm going to go home and go to church and pray--- what am i doing. I'M SUPPOSED TO BE AN INTERN OH HOLY WHALE-*

TAEDONG: /coughs. Uhm Jisung and Gunhee can be real crazy sometimes... but they're good guys

YOU: ...did you have to wear things like this as well when you interned?

TAEDONG: I was... /looks away. in a banana suit for the first three days /cries internally at the memory.

YOU: /gasped and immediately empathise with him. You've been... through a lot too /covers your mouth and sobs.

TAEDONG: /clenches his fist. I'll never forget the humiliation when they made me do rounds and handed out... bread to the patients.

YOU: /is crying dramatically by now. S-so you were

TAEDONG: /closes his eyes shut. Yes. I was.

TAEDONG: I was a banana bread.

as you cry at each others' pain, the both of you made your way to the second level to the ICU area and taedong introduced you to the nurses who were mainly rostered there.

TAEDONG: So this is Kim Sungri, Joo Jinwoo and Kim Yehyun... they're the ICU nurses and if you're working here, they'll be the ones teaching you the ropes. There is also another nurse named Park Woodam... but he's helping out at ED while I'm taking a break /nods.

SUNGRI: Hey I remember you! You're the-

JINWOO: /slaps sungri's mouth shut. /whispers to him. Remember what Doctor Im said. A word and we're dead. /talks normally at you and taedong. Ah yes, the new intern right? /lets go of the struggling sungri. We're the ones who run this place under the supervision of Doctor Parks but they're both helping out with ED while the ED doctors are helping out with surgeries.

YOU: /blinks. Why is that so?

YEHYUN: The big accident last night was a bus crashing into a truck and there was a lot of passengers. They were all transferred here and there's just not enough hands.

SUNGRI: Doctor Im and Doctor Kang comes by every chance they can to help out at ICU though so we're not that screwed.

YOU: Oh I see /nods.

TAEDONG: We'll get going then. I was just introducing her to the other nurse /waves and walks out with you.

SUNGRI: Was the nurse outfit always so provocative?

YEHYUN: Nope. I think it's just her 3 day curse.

SUNGRI: /shivers. I wasn't batman. I wasn't batman. I wasn't batman.

JINWOO:

It has been three days now that jonghyun died and i still can’t believe it. I still cannot believe that he commited a suicide because of depression. im so shocked that no one noticed. No one! When they were his friends and coworkers. They literally were with each other every single day. I dont blame them because im so sure they are blaming themselves now hard enough that they didnt notice but it really breaks my heart that no one was there for him. Even though he has a lot of fans and people who cares about him, he didnt feel that he deservese any of that and has no place in the world. Did no one wonder why he used to hug them very often? I think it is common knowledge that when someone seeks other people warmth very often and hug this intimatly that means he is lonely. Even if it was not a common knowledge did no one take the time and wonder about it? Didnt he sometimes look distant?

Im sorry i dont mean any of that. But im just mad. Mad at losing this precious angel that was between us and is gone forever. How long was he in this state? How often did he think about suicide and when did it began? What was it about? Why did he have to go and leave all this success behind? Did every time he laugh and smile was fake? Was he faking having a good time on camera because it was work? Did he not enjoy it? Was it this suffocating?

Was his smile fake all this time? Since when?

I cant help but think this when i see his pictures. I feel like my heart is shattered into million pieces. God be with the other members and with his family. God, give them strength to move forward. God be will all the shaowls and give them strength. Wish you all be okay. We will never foget him. He is forever and always with us, in our hearts

 G Dragon

As a super fashion forward guy GD or as you like to refer to him G is always super supportive of you. and even tho you don’t always get to talk ( do to his super busy schedule) he some how finds away to be there for you. Even if its a “so i see you’re working on a new project, let me know if you need some advice” text... You have offended wondered if these late night text mean more that what they imply, but because life without out him in your corner is far to much to bare you usually send a funny or sarcastic reply, But after a very sensual dream about GD you can no longer ignore these feelings in the back of your mind.Could he think of you that way or is your mind playing tricks on you?

   T.O.P

Even though the two of you are BFF’s he is not easy to read. You thought you knew him, but It turns out T.O.P has a much darker side to him (that is if you believe what the media says about him.) Since the two of you met he has been your shoulder to cry on about; break ups, work, and family. Now that he is going through his own struggle you what desperately to be his shoulder, but is he strong enough to trust you and let you in? You desperately hope so... 

Y/N : “PLEASE!!! WILL YOU JUST TALK TO ME?!”

TOP OPPA: “ Stop being so dramatic! You should know me better than anyone else, do I look like I have a PROBLEM!!!! (TO BE CONTINUED)

Taeyang

Though Tae’s media announcement of his relationship with actress Min Hyo Rin didn’t surprise you ( considering you were apart of the group text he sent to the members of Big Bang when it happened) it made your heart drop (now it was real)... You had missed your chance to tell him that you felt something more than friendship towards him. But he was happy, right? You refused to be that chick that comes in and tries to fuck things up, but why did you feel so lost and confused when you saw them together? Why did it make you hate yourself? His relationship made you question everything about yourself, and because you were close to the other members of Big Bang they noticed and edger you to say some thing before they did!

Daesung

Nothing is funnier than Daesung’s sad attempts to be serious with you, but one night he pulls you aside and confesses to you ( completely out of the blue) and you’re left confused and completely over whelmed. What would an actual relationship with Daesung be like? Now all you can think about is have the two of you ever had a real conversation; it was all jokes and happy times with Deasung. Sure as physical attraction goes, Daesung is hot as fuck, and ever now and again when you were so lucky to hear him talk business he never failed to blow your mind (The man knows the music industry like the back of his hand). But why confess now? What made him think that in the middle of a company party was the best time to drop this bombshell on you? 

Sungri