@sunflcwcrr asked ❝ i never want to let go. ❞
Rare that life would give them something that they wanted - she should do well to lower any expectations and go from there. They had known each other for so long that he hates to be the one to disappoint but Ben had died years ago in that temple along with what remained of Luke’s conscience. There was no returning from that and she needed to leave it in the past, moving forward they would be part of two different factions and that’s how he intends to continue it. He watches her from across the room, his eyes unyielding from hers, and he considers that this may be the last time they see each other in person. Alerts should have been cascaded to gather the troops and take her in for questioning but he is not as far gone as he believes, there is part of him that still holds a moral code.
“ Then you will be holding onto something that is no longer there. So fickle. People, memories, life - move on, Lauren. I won’t be so generous next time ” his words hold no conviction despite the deep set tones of his voice, their history was too rich for him to send her to the slaughter. She may have turned him away as Kylo but she was one of the few that was there when he needed her. Now he would return the favour.