#sun kill moon

i’m the same as i was when i was six years old—and, oh my god, i feel so old. (never ending math equation, by sun kill moon.) (er, s9e8, first snow)

07:30

We made love this morning and she went off to Best Buy and Bed, Bath & Beyond But I stayed in bed 'cause in my mind there was so much goin' on Chris Squire died the other night and it brought tears to my eyes 'Cause I'd just saw the Italian film Youth where his song played five or six times The love song "Onward" Chris Squire was the Starship Trooper The angelic songbird brought down by Leukemia I heard I remember spinning The Yes Album with my childhood friend Christopher Who was battling Leukemia too and losin' his hair We were in his brother's bedroom hanging out with his older brother Spinnin' "I've Seen All Good People" and "Your Move" over and over That green album and learning to play guitar became my obsession While everyone else was trapping muskrats and shooting Winchesters and Remingtons Christopher died a year later Last time I saw him we were smoking laced reefer Some crazy guy was chasing us with a baseball bat and Christopher and I just laughed A warm sunny memory a stringer full of fish It wasn't long after he was killed by a bus A divine intervention 'cause he was losing the bout and losing his voice He refused to suffer in a hospital 'cause he just wanted to live like everyone else and have fun and hang out We went to his memorial and his brother was a drunk, angry mess He was crying and kicking and out of his mind and threatening to kill us So the next morning we returned to Christopher's grave The same graveyard where he and I used to drink Bud Light all day But on went my life and I bought all the Yes albums Yeah, even the ninety-nine cent cut-out bin Tormato And I saw Yes back in Ohio, then at The Warfield in San Francisco And Jon Anderson had so much energy he was jumping around and hitting every note But when we came home my girlfriend learned it was some other guy they found on YouTube from Ontario We were pretty far back that shows you what I know Years later I got a call from director Paolo Sorrentino He loved the song "Onward", he said it was a great American ballad and I said "No, It's by Chris Squire" and shrugged like whatever and puffed his cigar And he flew me out to Switzerland and he filmed me playing the song all day long Me singing "Onward" to some extras and Michael Caine out on a lawn And for everyone out there who hasn't heard it, trust me "Onward" is a great love song I finally got to see Paolo's film on a day off in Milan The main theme of the soundtrack was that dreamy, old love song The movie was dubbed in Italian and Steve Shelley fell asleep But thank god for "Onward" because they cut all my other scenes I think of John Paul Jones and John Entwistle and the great bass players of that time But the guy who cut through like no other guy was the guy who played his Rick with a pick, Chris Squire And I laid in bed and I thought of those old albums Close to the Edge and Relayer and Going for the One and Fragile The last one Yes ever made was Heaven and Earth If heaven is real then none belong there more than Chris Squire and my long lost friend, Christopher

From the crowd I heardYou sing a pretty lineWas it: "there's so much love -that I wanna cry".

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