i’m not sure if it’s because i’ve been kind of tweaking but it’s so wild to think i was just. a guy. like yes i was subspace phighting but aside from all the things that happened from canon i just existed. I did things I do in this life. i had. a singular oc in middle school that i abandoned that later on i turned into a biograft beta model (funnily enough). I admired myself in the mirror and felt good about myself. I hung out with Medkit outside of school as a teenager. I talked about my interests with Hyperlaser in the break room. Ideas struck me and I would grab a sketchpad and quickly pump out a design on the page. I listened to pop music while i worked and sung the lyrics to myself under my breath. i had sick days.
i was just some guy. Yes, “Blackrock’s greatest scientist” or whatever, but at the end of the day I had my own hobbies and thoughts and depth that’s more than what canon presents (wow it’s almost like i was actually a person! no way! /s /j)
And it is almost a little hard to wrap my head around, I’m not sure why. I could exist just as much and have little hobbies and stuff like that all the same as Boombox, and I’m like, yeah! checks out. But then when it comes to Subspace it’s like. oh my god that’s a bizarre thing to think about. i was an artist and drew designs i built. I did all this other stuff that wasn’t just Build Robot! Something something Medkit and Coil!
I’m sure I’ll get used to the thought but it’s like, wow. It’s so incredibly intriguing to me. And perhaps that thought simply comes from my perspective of the fact that prior to kinfirming Subspace, I just never looked too deep into myself. I took what canon presented as that’s all there was and was like ‘grrr smelly scientist’ and favored Boombox instead. but now that i am subspace and i am remembering memories at a fast rate it’s kind of all hitting me like, wow i think i treated subspace as a character way too harshly. i have to give myself some grace and open myself up to anything
sorry for the long post eek!!!!
-subspace t. mine (#🕹️👾🎸)
