i feel like i discovered something… last night i was frustrated, whole body irritated, i remember i felt like this many years ago. And in those times, i would rub out many orgasms, and when my clit became too sore and im tired out, the discomfort hides the irritation and i would pass out.
Last night, i was in that state, i rubbed my clit without permission. Haven’t rubbed that thing for almost a year, i got to my first edge in 10 seconds, then i stopped when my pussy started burning with need and my pussy started to clench, i couldn’t push myself over, the conditioning kicked in so beautifully.
When the edge cooled down a bit, i struggled to be good and i did it 3 more times😭 each time grunting pathetically at the edge, grabbing, squeezing around my pussy, using every cell to avoid my throbbing clit…
The irritation was gone before i even understood whats happening…
i messaged my Domme about my misbehaving incident, after i stopped convulsing, She knowns how it is, and She was so generous and told me only to zap my clit the amount of times i got to the edge.
Has denial actually been the solution all along? i feel so silly now for all those useless orgasms that wasted my life back then…