Crush: is straight

Me:

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Okay so I've been crushing on this girl that I met at work for at least 1 1/2 years now. (she works at a different place now)

We went out a lot together and we kissed twice when we were pretty drunk.

She always made side remarks about us going on a date and stuff and I always feel like she's flirting with me.

So I was like, hey maybe she's into me too 🤷‍♀️

WRONG! next time we met she had a boyfriend 🤦‍♀️

So she was bitching about her boyfriend, how the second they got together things were complicated blah blah blah..

So then my world was crushed (obviously).

I tried to not see her as much, cause honestly it would break my heart everytime.(I didn't even know I have a heart!)

So we went out again and she told me that they broke up and I was like "yay 🙌"

But obviously my coward ass didn't make a move or anything so 2 weeks later they're back together 🤦‍♀️

Yesterday we went out together again and she was complaining about him all the time. So I told her if he's not making her happy she should break up with him cause what's the point. But she explained to me that she really likes him and he can be super sweet sometimes..(you know the drill)

So yeah, here I am not being able to get over her. I don't want to stop seeing her cause that's really mean to just end all contact without explaining anything cause she's a sweetheart and doesn't deserve that but it's also really hard and I don't wanna feel those things anymore 😫