#ston3ypanda

I’m in a on and off relationship for almost 3 years. (10/2018) We have issues from the beginning cuz I went on a trip to Cali and saw my ex. Me and my girl had just met at that time. Then I cheated again with a guy. Then I cheated again with a girl. Then many issues with me lying to her about simple stuff. Idk why I lied. I get scared so I lie. The truth is better. After while we were doing better. She didn’t trust me at all. When she would start to trust me, I would do some dumb shit. Then recently I was living at her apartment with her and her kids since February (2021). She always told me she needs space. It was rare, if I left to me my house. I love being under her. Since I was living there, there was 3 incidents regarding the kids that she didn’t trust me after. Then a rule she had in the house and I disregarded it. She put up with so much of my shit. She is done with me. Every time I say I wish there is something I can do to fix it but this time there is nothing. I wish to ultimately go back to October 2018 and fix it. I want this girl in my life. She makes me better with life decisions and I actually listen and learn. She wants better for me. I love her, I need to stop breaking her heart. We have more issues than this.