#staying present

✦ Gentle notice: this is not hypnosis. Just thinking out loud. ✦

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No imagery.

No silence.

No “let go.”

Just something to follow

that doesn’t ask me to disappear.

The narrator doesn’t shut up.

It listens.

And for the first time,

that’s enough.

For example:

Say I’m freaking out over something. I’ve convinced myself that it’s going to go wrong. Now I say to myself “then I’ll go from there.”

See, in saying this, I’m not denying that a bad thing could happen. But I’m not humouring the idea that my life would implode either. Because the fact of the matter is that all we ever do - all the time - is go from here. And here. And also here. A string of ‘now’s mixed with constant adjustment. That’s what the present is. And that’s what it’s gonna be whenever that made up thing in my head (that might possibly happen) happens. There will always be an action taken and it’ll be up to me how I decide to take it. And I decide to go from here. And there.

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The first border was the concept of time, sun to sun, moon to moon, seasons changing, seed to sprout to mighty tree.

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We did not know what to call it back then, but we felt its subtle flow. We felt its need to change things.

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We started making marks to record its movements. Days became months, months became years, and so we too were changed, bound within the arms of time.

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Now, we are plagued by thoughts of “what if”, and we remember more than we should. We dwell where we should not dwell, in past mistakes, in grief and loneliness, in fear and isolation.

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Many enlightened souls have said that now is the only solace to be found, living in the current moment, not straying into the past, not worrying about the future.

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This is wisdom, is it not?

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The arms of time are very strong, but the desire for freedom is a powerful force.

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We sometimes sense this lighter way of life, and it feels as if we are breathing easy, beneath a sky of purest blue.

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In one, little word rests the biggest concept of all, that there are no borders if we so choose, that we are infinite.

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That we simply are, unfettered as we wish to be.

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In each moment, free.

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