#startlereflex

I really feel like I could die right now. So sick and tired of everything. I really wonder why sometimes I was chosen to live under these circumstances. Okay, yeah. Let’s give her spastic quadriplegic Cerebral Palsy, have her live with a bipolar mother and sister who she’s afraid of, Let’s give her an anxiety disorder, possible PTSD, and possible Stockholm syndrome, and we aren’t even to the good part yet…. let’s have her fall in love with a 25 year old when she’s 12 who kisses her on the lips pretty much every night and lay on top of her but than stops talking to her the minute his girlfriend orders him to. Let’s put her through an investigation with only four people who believe her, have her family call her a liar, and the authorities not find anything on this guy making her look obsessed, which her own sister told her she was, let’s make it continue… the girl still holds a grudge 3 yrs later for how her family treated her during the situation and all the abuse she encountered by the hands of her own mother. this is the girl’s favorite part, let’s have everyone around her say that when she’s her sisters age (18) she’ll “love” her mother and forrgive her. funny how the girl never claimed not to love her mother, she admits and tells her she does, but knows she won’t forgive her and can’t wait to be eighteen just to show them that. at the same time, she’s so anxious to become 18 because she can’t even take her own shirt off or put her hair up or go from her chair to the toilet. don’t even get her started on the bullying case where of course everyone thought she was lying and both her mother and sister risked jail time trying to protect her. now we’re here where her anxiety is in the worst state it’s ever been, but she manages to get straight A’s and goes to a school where everyone likes her but they don’t know any of this. she’s so self couscous and it’s so easy to offend her, she doesn’t think she’s gonna get a boyfriend, she’s attracted to older guys which makes her a slut, a virgin slut at that. isn’t that funny? the guys that make her feel like she has a chance always destroy that hope by just randomly stop talking to her which makes her feel like she’s done something wrong. she has all that in her life that goes unknown and people have to turn around and laugh when her startle reflex goes off or she has a muscle spasm. well, don’t you think she’s been through enough? cause i do.