My GP levelled with me today, said she’d never in all her education or experience with medicine come across someone as young as me having the back problems I’ve got / the surgeries I’ve had. Said all she can do is try to help me manage and that she feels for me because I’ve been given a tough hand. I’ve never in my entire life had a doctor like her and it terrifies me to lose her — I’ve been in and out of hospital since I was a baby, I’ve been so many doctors in my life already and none of them has ever validated my pain or experiences like she has, none of them has ever empathised with me like this — and it genuinely makes me tear up. I told her that the surgeon after my last spinal operation made it seem like any future pain / surgery was a choice I was making, that I feel guilty whenever I’m in pain or not actively working to strengthen my back muscles. Girl deadass said “and that’s why I don’t talk to surgeons” lmaooo
