Bug Like Angel
pt1
Lonesome Love
You're about a year old when you're dropped off at the manor by your mother, along with your birth certificate and important papers.
She never truly cared for you, so she just left. She couldn't care if she wanted to, she could barely afford you. You sometimes wonder how life would've been if she stayed and cared and hadn't dropped you off at your father's.
Bruce didn't believe he was your actual father, he thought it was someone trying to get money from him.
After some DNA tests, it was confirmed. You were his kid.
Ever since you were little, like most babies, you needed attention.
Unfortunately in a household like this, you believe you won't ever get what you want.
Your father, Bruce Wayne, never had time for you. Always on a mission.
You would try and come up to him and talk to him and try and get him to do stuff with you, like listening to music or anything, you wouldn't mind doing anything as long as it was with your father.
You tried to read fancy newspapers you didn't understand infront of Bruce to get his attention and make yourself look smarter than you are.
All he does is walk away
Tagging along behind him was Richard "Dick" Grayson. Who was supposed to be like an older brother to you.
You would always go up to him and show off, trying to look cool to him or talk to him in general.
It never really worked.
You joined gymnastics when you were 6 in the hopes of getting Dick to talk to you.
All he does is give you a "Good job birdie!" with a ruffle of your hair which you won't complain about since that's the most he's paid attention to you since you got here.
Alfred was the only one you saw and had actual conversations with. He wasn't around as often as he would like to, but he tried his best..!
You would try and join him in baking only for you to mess it up. You thought he would shoo you away but he taught you how to do it well! He wasn't always with you though, he had to go and help your father on his missions.
You feel like you shouldn't complain about the little to no amount of love. You could technically buy anything you wish for You can afford anything you want!
All the fancy clothes and all the toys you wanted! Even your room was huge!You try and stay positive through everything, everything gonna be fine.
When you were 7 years old, Jason Todd was brought into the manor.
You half expected him to brush you off like Dick and Bruce, but to your surprise, he interacted with you!
Despite the 4-year age difference, he and you were inseparable.
He read to you every night, he listened to whatever you said, even if it didn't make sense, he would play whatever with you, and he would even take you out for walks!
He told you all about his school and despite some of the complaints he had, you wanted to go to a real school so badly!
You wanted friends! You wanted to talk to others! After being homeschooled your whole life, you begged your father to please let you go to public school.
...He said no.
You were so sad! why won't he just let you go? After months and months of begging, he finally let you go to private school!
The uniform was itchy and stupid-looking and the people there were kinda rude but still! School!!
After a week or two, you were extremely popular due to your bubbly personality and your being a social butterfly!
You had so many friends, everyone at school liked you being high energy! You loved your elementary school! You were pretty smart too, you had passing grades without even trying! Even if it technically is just an addition...
You were popular with students and teachers! Everyone wanted to play tag with you and race you to the swings and hang on the monkey bars with you and-
Everything was just perfect!
Until it wasn't.
You were 9 when Jason Todd was killed by the Joker.
You sobbed when you realized he wasn't coming back. You hated the Joker. You couldn't understand why.
Why would he do that?whywhywhywhywhyehywhywhywhywhywhywhywh
You don't have anyone to help you. Sure your friends at school exist but they wouldn't understand, you're all children, and most of them have gone through similar things. They wouldnt care.
You cried and threw up so many times.
You just wanted your brother back.
You wanted him to read you a story one more time. To talk to you one more time. To play with him one more time. To see him one more time. justonemoretimepleasepleasepleaseplease
You stopped going to school for a while to mourn. It was 3 weeks before you came back.
You were 11 years old when a new robin was introduced
Tim Drake
You tried to talk to him, you did! It's just that he looked so mad whenever you tried to talk to him like you were interrupting even while just existing.
So you stopped. He made you so mad, what made him think he could just take over Jason's legacy?!
You both avoided each other like the plague. There isn't much to be said, other than how you wish you guys could get along.
You're 12 when Jason's back. He's now also avoiding you. You don't understand why. You guys were so close, what happened?
You didn't understand, you've tried so hard for all of them, so why couldn't they just see you for once?
You're done.
You can't do this anymore.
They took Damian in with open arms. Dick got close to him immediately. It feels like everywhere you look they're all together, as a family. You're so sad. You're so mad. You're so tired.
They never cared for you. You tried so hard for them. Perfect grades, multiple hobbies you hate besides one, but it's the one thing you can't get done correctly. Electric guitar.
You're done.
hi guys its me again this is highkey buns but like idk
idk when the next chapter is cominf out isigh BUTBUTBUT im still getting used to this so hi
