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Song- "Windows"

I wanted to call you all the sunbeams that came shining through and turn the dust to gold

Wanted to say to you, your pure illumination kept me safe from all the dark and all the cold

I'm not saying it's not true, but that's not what I made of you

I was selfish, I was foolish and ashamed

I couldn't speak to ask/ You were iron bars inside the glass

'til time rusted you away

You're not to blame

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So if I dive right through the glass what will be broken?

If I keep going while the window falls, what then?

If all the rain comes pouring in

what will it take you to begin again?

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There is a liar that makes promises at midnight

With the sweetest voice and cleverest replies

She tells me it would be a gift, it won't be long 'til spirits lift

Oh, and besides tears add a sparkle to their eyes.

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And I am smart and brave and strong

But I've been hearing her so long

I can't ask anybody else if this is true

"It's just so obvious" they'll say

And then they'll laugh and turn away

But if it's obvious then why did I ask you?

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And if I fell right through the glass what would be broken?

If I keep falling, then what of me will remain?

I can't tell if I'm inside, should I throw it open wide

And take a penthouse walk into the pouring rain?

And when they ask "are you surprised"

I think you'll look them in the eyes

And say

"Pride comes before, and came without a sign"

For though I've been down on my knees, the screaming didn't seem to please

you so I twisted it to laughter.

I'll be fine fine fine fine fine

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And if you push me through the glass, is that still falling?

And if I'm broken well before, then who would know?

Cause I've been begging a reprieve, it's like I don't know when to leave,

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